Everyone has their own reasons for doing things.
In England I felt trapped almost suffocated. I just didn’t know what to do. I just knew that being in England just wasnt helpful and I felt that I needed to leave. I’ve always wanted to travel. Asia especially. It was South Korea that I was drawn to. It was something about the language, the food and the culture. I just remember thinking that it was something that I wanted to be apart of. So that was it…! My decision to go was made!
As children (in England at least) you are brought up in the world to study —-> figure out what job or career you want —-> then work. You’re expected to figure your entire life out whilst you’re still at school.
The system doesn’t allow for people to not know what they want to do with their lives.
For a big part of my life I was okay. I knew exactly what I wanted to do in life and where I wanted to go. All the way through high school —-> through sixth form —-> through University. I had an incredible amount of passion for filmmaking. I figured that filmmaking was something that I would do for the rest of my life.
I remember saying to myself at one point “I don’t understand people who don’t have it figured out…” And “It’s not difficult, find something you love and do that for the rest of your life.” Oh how wrong I was!
I graduated University and I didn’t have a clue of what I was doing with my life! I was lost.
Eventually, I had accepted that maybe media wasn’t for me. But, where does that leave me…? At the bottom and staring up at what seemed like mountains of different decisions to make!
For months I felt sorry for myself. I wallowed in self-pity for a good 8 months. Then I decided I couldn’t live my life like that anymore. I learned to accept that it was okay that I didn’t have a ‘life map’ because realistically, who does?
I needed to find myself, and that’s why I came to South Korea. BEST DECISION EVER! 🙂
“I’m just a girl trying to find her place in this world”
P.S. Have you struggled to find what you want to do in your life? If so, how did you overcome it.