Everyone experiences difficult times. Since returning from South Korea I’ve been going through a rough time. I’m not adjusting back into England very well as well as a few other things.
Of course I have missed England, mostly my family and friends. I’ve missed home cooked foods. Especially roast chicken dinners! As much as I love Korea, there are some things in England that I do prefer. Christmas for example!
Since coming back I’ve gotten myself into this rut that I can’t seem to break out of. I have to force myself to eat. Going to sleep isn’t easy. Damn insomnia! When I eventually fall to sleep, I find it hard to wake up. Then I have a lingering migraine all day. I think it’s due to stress. I can only do so much. I’m trying, I guess that’s the main thing.
Next year is going to be different. What I’ve worked out recently is, it’s important to pick out the people in your life who truly care. The other’s that are in your life who don’t ask you how you are, even know they understand that you’re going through a tough time. Those are the people I need to let go of. They are negative and self-centred people.
As cliche as it sounds, you do only live once. And it’s important to remember that THIS IS YOUR LIFE. Not someone else’s. You cannot constantly be following what someone else wants to do all the time. You cannot keep asking them “how are you, did you have a good day?” to which they respond with, “Yeah thanks.” then the conversation ends. They never ask about you. Or how your day was. Or what you did. Friendships/relationships work both ways. It takes equal effort from both sides.
I’m excited to start the new year. I have lots of things planned. I’m planning on taking a TOPIK test (Korean proficiency language test) next April in London. I’m thinking about doing a masters degree, maybe in events management or business. I want to start a YouTube channel, like a proper one! Haha. I want to get back into filmmaking again.
It’s important to find something you love and go for it. Life is too short to be stopped from doing something that you love because of circumstances or people.
I cannot wait to see what the new year brings~
– Hannah ❤