I Want To Be Okay.

Dear Journal, The past few days have been quite productive. I’ve certainly had ups and downs. As I’m writing this I’ve found myself getting very paranoid and very emotional. I worry that I’m not enough. I worry that I will never overcome depression. I worry that I will never overcome how I feel. I worry … More I Want To Be Okay.

Monday Thoughts.

Dear Journal, It’s been a while. I feel like I start every journal post saying this… I should post more often! Things have been pretty up and down. I’ve been finding it increasingly difficult to maintain my mood. Work has been okay. Could be better though if I’m honest. Everyday is the same, I put … More Monday Thoughts.

Giving Up.

Going to put a mild trigger warning for anyone who doesn’t want to read about self-harm.  Dear Journal, I really want to write a positive post. I feel as though I’ve written so many negative ones recently. The truth is, I’m not in a good place. I’m not sure why exactly I feel like this. … More Giving Up.

Make It Count.

Dear Journal, This week has been incredibly tough. When I woke up this morning, something was different. My mind was different. There wasn’t this ‘black rainy cloud’ suffocating my mind. There was silence, and calmness. For those of you who know me, my mind is constantly made up of overthinking and ‘what if’s’ and stress. … More Make It Count.

I Miss Therapy.

Dear Journal, The past week has been awful. I haven’t been eating properly, and I know this is why I feel exhausted and have excruciating headaches. But I still can’t bring myself to eat. I’m still punishing myself. It seems to be a pattern of mine, no eating, sleeping and self harm are all the … More I Miss Therapy.

I Will Miss You.

Dear Journal, Today I want to talk about something that is very… tragic and unexpected. Death has always been something that scares me, I guess it’s the same for a lot of people. I mean, it’s a very morbid and scary thing to think about. Death puts life into prospective. It makes us realise just … More I Will Miss You.

Building Bridges.

Dear Journal, Today I want to talk to you about “building bridges”. Over the past 6 years I’ve burnt more friendship bridges than I could have ever imagined. It’s often not because I don’t like the person anymore or because we have different interests. It’s often because my anxiety or depression has stopped me from … More Building Bridges.

I’m Back.

Hello hello. I’m back. Missed me? How was your weekend? Mine was, relaxing to say the least. I got so much reading done. I started reading a new book called Everything Everything. It’s about a girl who can’t leave the house as she will get sick. A new family moved in next door and their … More I’m Back.

A Full Detox.

Dear Journal, This week I feel like I’m really struggling, and it’s only Tuesday! I’m feeling kind of overwhelmed and I’m letting stuff get on top of me. I’m behind on my upload schedule for this blog and it’s starting to really stress me out. Today is my second day off work. I’m glad to … More A Full Detox.