I’ve lived here two months already? I can’t believe how fast it’s gone. I feel pretty much all settled in now. Work is going well. Josh and I are doing great. I’m feeling quite independent and empowered which is great. I think because I moved out then moved back in with my family a couple … More The Two Month Update.
Hello there! I’ve been meaning to write an update on here a while back but it’s been so hectic here. I’ve got so many things I want to share with you. Work has been great, I’ve been loving working at the coffee shop. I swear it’s like my dream job. Over the past couple of … More Cakes, My Job, and Coffee Drinking.
Dear Journal, … Ready? … I have a job. I’m so happy! I hate not having a job. A job makes me feel like I have a purpose, a responsibility. I have always wanted to work in a coffee shop and now I’ve got the chance to experience that coffee barista life. Tomorrow is my … More I Have News.
Dear Journal, The past few days have been quite productive. I’ve certainly had ups and downs. As I’m writing this I’ve found myself getting very paranoid and very emotional. I worry that I’m not enough. I worry that I will never overcome depression. I worry that I will never overcome how I feel. I worry … More I Want To Be Okay.
Dear Journal, It’s been a while. I feel like I start every journal post saying this… I should post more often! Things have been pretty up and down. I’ve been finding it increasingly difficult to maintain my mood. Work has been okay. Could be better though if I’m honest. Everyday is the same, I put … More Monday Thoughts.
Going to put a mild trigger warning for anyone who doesn’t want to read about self-harm. Dear Journal, I really want to write a positive post. I feel as though I’ve written so many negative ones recently. The truth is, I’m not in a good place. I’m not sure why exactly I feel like this. … More Giving Up.
Dear Journal, This week has been incredibly tough. When I woke up this morning, something was different. My mind was different. There wasn’t this ‘black rainy cloud’ suffocating my mind. There was silence, and calmness. For those of you who know me, my mind is constantly made up of overthinking and ‘what if’s’ and stress. … More Make It Count.
Dear Journal, The past week has been awful. I haven’t been eating properly, and I know this is why I feel exhausted and have excruciating headaches. But I still can’t bring myself to eat. I’m still punishing myself. It seems to be a pattern of mine, no eating, sleeping and self harm are all the … More I Miss Therapy.
Dear Journal, Today I want to talk about something that is very… tragic and unexpected. Death has always been something that scares me, I guess it’s the same for a lot of people. I mean, it’s a very morbid and scary thing to think about. Death puts life into prospective. It makes us realise just … More I Will Miss You.
Dear Journal, Today I want to talk to you about “building bridges”. Over the past 6 years I’ve burnt more friendship bridges than I could have ever imagined. It’s often not because I don’t like the person anymore or because we have different interests. It’s often because my anxiety or depression has stopped me from … More Building Bridges.