# We All Have A Story.

After seeing this hashtag going around on Twitter this morning I just knew that I had to get involved. Created by The Blurt Foundation. I’m all about things like this, it’s such a fantastic way to get people talking about mental health. Raising awareness about mental health needs to be taken more seriously than it ever has done before. It’s important that people feel that they can reach out without feeling pressured or embarrassed.

I came across Me and My Mental Health Matter’s Blog and loved the questions they used so I decided that I would answer the same questions on here.

When did you first notice your condition?

I think I was first aware of my condition from the age of 13. I didn’t fully understand or know exactly what it was. I just knew that I didn’t feel ‘right’. I didn’t fit in, but not in a ‘normal’ typical teenage not fitting in way, as many people around me felt thats the phase I was going through. I knew something was wrong and that I didn’t feel right.

It wasn’t till the age of 18 that my doctors finally gave me the ‘depression and anxiety’ label.

When did you first get help for your condition? 

I first saw a school councillor at the age of 15. She helped me with stress management. That was the first time I was introduced to breathing techniques and meditation.

I saw three different therapists throughout my time at University. As well as a crisis team and sought help from the A&E department.

Do you take medication?

Yes. Over the past 6 years I’ve taken it on and off. At the moment I take two different dosages of Venlafaxine. It’s the only one I’ve been on that’s worked. Before Venlafaxine, no medication was working so my doctor referred me to a psychiatrist and they doubled my dose. I’ve been on this dose for the past year and 8 months. I will probably be on them for the rest of my life, but to be honest, if they help me live my life then I am okay with that.

What do you miss out on because of your condition?

In short, yes I do miss out on some things. But, as I get older I realise that my life is what I make it. Travel makes me anxious at times, but I take small journeys to challenge myself.

Would you get rid of your condition if you could?

No. I don’t think I would. It would have made my life a hell of a lot easier, but I wouldn’t have the acceptance and compassion for life that I have now. Yes there are many situations that make me anxious. There are days I feel like I can’t face the world. There are days where I feel like I can’t ‘do life’ anymore. But, I keep fighting. I keep living each day as it comes because I might feel depressed and hopeless one day but the next day I might wake up and be happy.

We All Have A Story. It’s your story and everyones is different. Keep fighting and pushing for what you want in life.

Life is so worth it.

Much love,
Hannah x

I’ve Come So Far.

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It has taken me years to be brave enough to walk around comfortably in a t-shirt.
I walked around Calais last weekend in shorts and a t-shirt.

It was such an achievement for me! 👍🏻💛

⭐️ Your mental health does not define you.

⭐️ Your scars do not define you.

⭐️ Your struggles are a sign of your inner strength.

Keep being you and you will go far. Work on accepting who you are and where you want to go. Make no apologies for who you are and just do your best!

Much love,

Hannah x

Mental Health in the Workplace.

Processed with VSCO with hb2 presetI’m a few days late with this post. I figured I would write a post for Mental Health Awareness Day anyway as I feel that we should be open in talking about mental health all the time, not just for one day. I’ve kind of struggled to find the words to write this post and I’m not sure why.

Mental Health Awareness Day was on the 10th October, it was meant to highlight mental health within the workplace.

A little over a month ago I decided to take some time off work to focus on my mental health. I wasn’t in a good place, now without going into too much detail I just didn’t find myself wanting to live my life anymore. I didn’t feel as though it was worth it. My body and my mind hurt. Emotionally, I was a wreck. Everyday that went by I felt worse and worse. It got to the point that I felt so numb and helpless I had to go and see my doctor and get signed on sick. Going on sick was the absolute last resort for me. Anyone who knows me, knows how much I love to work!

I’m so lucky that my workplace has been so understanding about my mental health! Understanding is an understatement really, they really have been supportive. I’m so so grateful that I have this support network, as I know that many of you don’t have this. I’ve heard so many stories about people who have lost their jobs or been asked to resign from their positions. Mental health in the workplace is becoming a subject that is being more and more talked about. Mental health should be treated just the same as a physical illness. Just because you can’t see the problem does not mean that it’s not there! Mental health creates physical symptoms, I think it’s really important to acknowledge that!

I wanted to talk about how it’s incredibly important to make the people around you (not just at work) aware if you are struggling. No-one should be struggling in silence. So many people feel like they are alone in trying to manage with mental health issues. I can assure you, you are most definitely not alone! There are so many people in this world who are here to listen and are here to help.

For me, taking that time away from work was difficult. I had to fill my days with things to do otherwise I could have easily just laid in bed all day! I took time to reflect. I took time to think about my future. I created a positivity board. (I’m sure that I will blog about that in the future) It’s been really helpful actually! It’s helped me think about my future in a positive light.

After returning to work I have felt my mental health take a dip again although I’m enjoying getting back into a solid routine. I’m just trying to take it a day at a time!

How do you deal with your mental health in the workplace?

– Hannah ❤

 

Darkspots August Box.

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At this beginning of this month I decided that I would try out Darkspots monthly subscription box.

I was immediately intrigued by this box because I haven’t seen anything like this before. For someone like me that struggles with maintaining a constant mood. It’s nice to have a little ‘pick me up’ delivered straight to your door.

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I love the thought and passion that goes into these boxes.

This months box seems to have included a little bit of everything that can immediately lift your mood.

The first thing I noticed was the body shop soap. I fell in love with it immediately. It smells beautiful! I’ve always been a big fan of stress balls. I used to use them when I was at school and University, I found them really useful. I’m glad that I got a pineapple one included in this box.

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I love that Darkspots included this in the box. ‘A Dark Spot’… Realistically, recovery is not one straight line of positivity and perfect days. In fact, neither is life. Everyone has ups and downs, and good and bad days. It’s important to not put too much pressure on ourselves to have perfectly happy good days and that’s okay to have the odd ‘off’ day. In face, it’s ‘normal’.

I’m currently attempting the challenge that has been set by Darkspots. It’s going well so far. 🙂

If you are interested in getting your hands on one of these boxes. Head over to https://www.darkspots.co.uk and sign up.

– Hannah ❤

***This is NOT a sponsored post.

How To Deal With Being Triggered.

I’m going to place a trigger warning on this post for anyone who suffers with self harm. I urge you take care with reading this post. If you are easily triggered I urge you to skip this post or read with caution.

If you are having thoughts of hurting yourself or feel as though you are unable to keep yourself safe. I strongly urge you to contact either Samaritans on 116 123 or Mind on 0300 123 3393.


This week has been particularly difficult for me. It’s been just over a month since I have self harmed. I’m feeling particularly proud of myself, it’s been a tough month to say the least!

The thoughts are definitely still there, but I’ve been working on getting some alternatives in place for when I feel urges to self harm. Again, I’m super happy with the progress I’ve made over the past month!

I’ve been paying extra attention to what exactly triggers me. Whether that being objects, people, situations; I’ve made it my mission to identify what triggers my thoughts of self harm. Once I’m aware of my triggers, it’s easier to avoid being triggered in the future.

I won’t go into detail of the things that trigger me. I will however talk about how I deal with triggering situations.

At Home:

  • Cold shower (works the same as ice)
  • Go for a walk
    (Fresh air can clear your mind – I also particularly like standing outside in the rain, it can be quite refreshing)
  • Do yoga
  • Bake
  • Origami
  • Read
  • Write
    (Writing is a great way to get your feelings down and out of your mind)
  • Journal

At Work:

  • Speak to work about how I feel.
  • Use ice. (This is great as it’s painful but not in a harmful way. It also numbs my arm. I would strongly suggest trying this when you are getting strong urges to SH)

Out and About:

  • Take yourself away from the situation.
  • Go to somewhere you feel safe.
  • Listen to music.

Of course any of these can apply to any place or situation but these are just the ones that I have been using. 🙂

It’s important to keep yourself safe.

You are loved, cared for and wanted. It’s important to look and identify the positives that you have in your life. Focus on them and write a list of the reasons you stay alive.

As always, my e-mail is always open for those of you who want to talk.

– Hannah ❤