Well hello there! It’s been such a long time since my last post. Life has kinda got in the way and with the stress of Christmas just around the corner, it’s all been a bit overwhelming.
I wanted to ease myself back into blogging with a Christmas related post.
- I’ve put the Christmas Reindeer bedding on which was £15 from Primark. It’s so warm and cosy!
- I’ve got the gingerbread candles burning. The boyfriend bought me the gingerbread candle from Next.
- The Christmas cushions are out. The one that is pictured is one that I made a couple of months ago.
We have already got our tree and most of our decorations up and I can’t wait to share all of those images with you.
Have you started getting your house ready for Christmas? Maybe you’ve started Christmas baking or wrapping presents? Let me know what your plans are this Christmas.
– Hannah x
I’ve been kicking October off with fluffy slippers, cosy blankets, nutty lattes and autumn scented candles.
Sounds divine, doesn’t it?
I wanted to take part in Blogtober this year but life has kinda got in the way. Plus, I’ve been uploading new videos on my YouTube channel. *happy dance* I will however be doing Blogmas like last year because OMG that was so much fun!
If you are taking part in Blogtober this year please do send me your blog links I would love to add them to my reading list.
P.S. Listen with me: my current Autumn Playlist on Spotify
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Hello and welcome back to another Coffee Adventure post.
For this post I decided that I would take a trip over to Margate and visit The Curious Cupcake Cafe. I’ve been wanting to visit here for the past year.
Upon arrival, I managed to snag a window seat. I took out the menu and decided what I wanted to order. Of course, I knew that cake was going to be my number 1 choice!
The interior was very cosy and welcoming. Big thumbs up for the fairy lights around the room! As I made my way up to the classic counter that I had seen oh so many times over on their Instagram. There was quite a large range of cakes, snacks and cupcakes.
After much indecisiveness from me, I decided that I would order a chai latte I’m so obsessed right now, a piece of coffee cake and a chocolate cupcake. The staff were so friendly and offered for me to take a seat and they would bring my food to me.
I so wanted to love this place, but if I’m completely honest it just didn’t live up to my expectations. I felt that the cake was very dry and maybe store bought. The cupcake too I felt was dry and claggy. As a baker myself, I just expected more.
I really don’t want this post to be a negative one, I just feel that I wanted to share my experience.
When I visited it was very busy. I feel that it’s the type of place that you wouldn’t visit alone. I’m all about taking a good book or my laptop and just powering through work or reading. I did get my book out for a while though. I just didn’t feel that this was a place that you could do that very comfortably. Or maybe it was the time that I visited?
I would visit again, however next time I wouldn’t go alone. Next time I would probably branch out and grab myself some lunch too, their sandwiches looked lovely!
The Curious Cupcake Cafe
4/5 Market Place
Have you visited here? What were your thoughts?
Also, I am making it my mission to visit more and more coffee shops around Kent, and the UK so if you have any suggestions for coffee shops to visit please let me know.
How’s your Monday going so far?
One of the things I’ve been loving now that I’ve moved out is the amount of candles I can put everywhere. I’m obsessed!
I took a trip to Primark the other week and I came home with about 8 different candles and defusers. What can I say? I just love the apartment to smell lovely. I feel like for the first time since I moved in the apartment is starting to feel and smell like mine.
Do you like to decorate your space with candles?
– Hannah ❤
Hello hello! Today I want to share with you these awesome products that I have not only been loving but I have also been using them every single day.
They are everything I need in an eyeliner and mascara. For a long time I’ve struggle with applying eyeliner. I started off by using pencil eyeliner from Rimmel, which I still use on my bottom lashes actually. I’ve used quite a few liquid eyeliners but I’ve always found them difficult to handle. When I received this one for Christmas I instantly feel in love with it. It’s so easy to use and it stays on all day. I tend to apply a thin line on my top lashes. One day I will learn how to put a proper cat flick!
As for the mascara, I like to have one that really draws attention to my lashes without being too much. I like them to be defined! I have quite long natural lashes so it’s only right to flaunt them lol! I feel that this mascara is just everything I need right now!
I’ve also featured both of these products in my recent post about my Spring Make-up Bag.
I hope that you enjoyed this post. Let me know what eye products you’ve been loving recently!
– Hannah ❤
This session I found particularly difficult and emotional draining. We were discussing ‘Understanding Personality Development’.
We discussed how growing up in particular tough or stifling environments can stint personality development. This can cause a person to feel:
- Lack of trust
- Not getting close to people
- Feeling Abandoned
- Limited self-confidence
- Poor self-worth
- Poor emotional & behavioural self-regulation
- Difficulty communicating
A lot of these I can relate to, and that is what I found difficult from this session. It opened my eyes to a lot of reasons why I might feel like I do.
A key point that was mentioned in this session was that, when we are younger (as a child) we have a certain way of reacting to certain situations. As we grow up, if these habits aren’t changed and developed, it can lead to outbursts, mood swings and built up anger.
In these sessions we are aiming to look at these behaviours and begin to work on changing these habits.
We also discussed about mental health in the workplace and how the people around us respond when they know about mental illness.
I’m lucky, I gain a lot of support from my managers and workplace, they are incredibly understanding about my mental health providing I’m honest and I communicate how I’m feeling.
Overall, I think that these sessions are helping me.
I hope you all have a great week. 🙂
– Hannah ❤
How has your week been? Positive and productive I hope!
This evening I want to talk about something that has been playing on my mind for quite some time now. I always find myself craving permission, reassurance and certainty. I find that I crave these three things in all aspects of my life from work, home, relationships and friendships.
I crave for people to like me.
I crave for people to be proud of me.
I crave for myself to be better.
I crave for myself to be happy.
I crave for people to trust me.
Instead of focusing on what people think of me I should be focusing on if I’m happy with the person I’m growing up to be. Because, at the end of the day, I have to live with myself.
I tend to find myself stressing a lot at work. I worry what people think of me. I worry that people at work don’t trust me. I worry that people at work don’t see me as a responsible person. I worry that I’m not doing a good enough job.
I want to succeed, but I also want to be liked.
But at the end of the day I can only do my best. So this week, I’ve been trying to keep my head down and keep pushing through; one day at a time.
Admittedly, this week has been tough. I’ve had quite a few panic attacks and moments where I just felt like I couldn’t do ‘life’ anymore.
When I look at all of the positives from this week. My eating has been great! I have been to the gym for the past couple of days. I’ve been eating biscuits like theres no tomorrow. I’ve been reading. I’ve been going to bed earlier.
Theres a lot of more positives than negatives it would seem!
I’m going to try and keep my head held high. I’m going to keep pushing through the days; because life IS worth it.
I need to stay strong.
And, I will keep fighting.
I’m proud of everything I’ve achieved this week and I’m so grateful for the people who constantly support me. ❤
Everyone has their own reasons for doing things.
In England I felt trapped almost suffocated. I just didn’t know what to do. I just knew that being in England just wasnt helpful and I felt that I needed to leave. I’ve always wanted to travel. Asia especially. It was South Korea that I was drawn to. It was something about the language, the food and the culture. I just remember thinking that it was something that I wanted to be apart of. So that was it…! My decision to go was made!
As children (in England at least) you are brought up in the world to study —-> figure out what job or career you want —-> then work. You’re expected to figure your entire life out whilst you’re still at school.
The system doesn’t allow for people to not know what they want to do with their lives.
For a big part of my life I was okay. I knew exactly what I wanted to do in life and where I wanted to go. All the way through high school —-> through sixth form —-> through University. I had an incredible amount of passion for filmmaking. I figured that filmmaking was something that I would do for the rest of my life.
I remember saying to myself at one point “I don’t understand people who don’t have it figured out…” And “It’s not difficult, find something you love and do that for the rest of your life.” Oh how wrong I was!
I graduated University and I didn’t have a clue of what I was doing with my life! I was lost.
Eventually, I had accepted that maybe media wasn’t for me. But, where does that leave me…? At the bottom and staring up at what seemed like mountains of different decisions to make!
For months I felt sorry for myself. I wallowed in self-pity for a good 8 months. Then I decided I couldn’t live my life like that anymore. I learned to accept that it was okay that I didn’t have a ‘life map’ because realistically, who does?
I needed to find myself, and that’s why I came to South Korea. BEST DECISION EVER! 🙂
“I’m just a girl trying to find her place in this world”
P.S. Have you struggled to find what you want to do in your life? If so, how did you overcome it.
My first weekend is coming to an end so let’s conclude the past few days.
I arrived at my school on Friday afternoon. I was warmly greeted by around 20 students whom of which I will be teaching tomorrow afternoon. I was then taken to the staff room where I met the other teachers who I had either spoke to on Skype or via email before arriving in Korea. They were super nice to me and I was just so glad to be here after the stress of my visa these past few weeks. The director of the school then asked me if I would like to rest in my apartment for a few hours because I was tired from all the travelling. I agreed because let’s be honest, I was knackered. Plus falling asleep on the buses on the way here was not that restful. I remember, in between nodding off, I kept thinking “please say I’ve not missed my stop” luckily, but I didn’t realise this at the time, where I’m staying was the last stop. I like to think that the bus driver wouldn’t just leave me on the bus and drive off right?
After a short power nap in my apartment it was time to head downstairs to out for dinner with the director of the school and my colleagues. Another woman (also called Hannah) was leaving to move to Seoul and Friday was her last night. So it was like a joint celebration of me arriving and the other Hannah’s goodbye meal. We didn’t go far, just two shops away from the school and we had a Korean BBQ and beer. Let me tell you, I’ve seriously never tasted food as good as this EVER!
Doesn’t it look beautiful?
It was a really great evening and I had fun. I need to go back again sometime soon!
The next morning I woke up feeling quite adventurous. I looked outside and it was a beautiful day and I needed to go shopping. I was lucky my director bought me some cereal, milk, eggs, water, orange juice, crackers, bananas, some berries and sausages. What else could I need? Well to get me started, she pretty much covered everything I needed for a couple of days. But I didn’t realise until after I had gotten out of the shower on Friday evening, I didn’t have a towel! Fantastic! Luckily because its so hot and humid here, you can pretty much air dry in no time at all.
So a trip to Emart was needed!
Of course I didn’t know the way, one of the other teachers was going to take me but she had work to do. Since I was feeling brave this is what I did. She called me a taxi, wrote down what I needed to say to the driver. I got in the taxi, got to Emart, paid the 5000 won (£3.50) and got on my way into the shop. Normally, in England, shopping makes me anxious. The people make me anxious. In Korea, I actually found it quite relaxing. It was really bizarre. I said to myself on the way, if I don’t like it and I start to feel uncomfortable, then I can just get a taxi back to the apartment, its no big deal! Instead I spent ages in there, I looked around every section. Because I don’t have a phone that works here, I went to the customer service desk and asked them to call me a taxi, which they did. I got back in the taxi and went back to the apartment.
Today (Sunday) I planned to do something a little different. I wanted to walk somewhere. Inside I ran into my director and she said she needed to go to Emart and asked if I wanted to come along. I agreed and we rode bikes there. Hannah who left the previous day had given me her bike which I was so grateful for. It was such a lovely bike ride to Emart, we rode along the river. I’ll remember next time to take pictures to put on here. What I’ve noticed already is that people stare, its not in nasty and horrible way, they’re just curious. I live in a city with 20 foreign people and I’m new, they’ve not seen me before. I first noticed it in the airport when two guys were saying, oh look its an American person, to which I answered no I’m English and they just smiled. I think they saw my passport too. They didn’t realise that I would understand what they were saying. (I get points for learning Korean beforehand yes?) I was really funny though! They smiled as if to say, oh dear she’s onto us! The second time was when I got on the bus from Gangnam. I was just casually doing a word search in my travel book and I look up and this older lady is just staring at me. I look at her and she just keeps staring. But when I smiled, she looked away. How odd! I told one of the teachers about it when I got here and she just said to me, its because they’re curious. And the third time, which I think is the most funniest, when I was riding back from Emart with the director today, we past a couple of older men. As we rode by one of them said to me, hello, so I said hello back. Then he said I love you! (Its funnier when you hear it in a Korean accent.) Myself and the director just laughed. Older people are so funny here!
When we got back, the director asked if I wanted to meet her friend and I was like, sure. She came over to the school (I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it before, but I live right above the school) we ended up talking for ages and ages. But it was nice. She asked if I could teach them English properly. They can speak it but not fluently. I of course agreed and asked for Korean lessons in return which they also agreed to. 🙂
I’ve not done much this evening though. I’ve tried to relax as I start teaching tomorrow afternoon. I’ve done some preparation for tomorrow. If Friday is anything to go by, the children have a lot of energy!
Fingers crossed tomorrow goes well. Its gone midnight here in Korea and I need to sleep. I’ll hopefully post more tomorrow. 🙂