Dear Future BF

Boyfriend! Well, hello! Firstly, I would like to say that I’m really proud of myself for learning how to open myself up to another person again. I’m sure we have already discussed about ex’s by this point, and as you probably already know, my ex’s have been pretty… shitty, to say the least! You are probably … More Dear Future BF

Taking Back Control.

Going and telling a complete stranger that something is wrong is no easy task. It takes courage, strength and confidence. All of which in recent months I have been struggling with. Yesterday was my first day back at my original store. I was really anxious. I got changed into my uniform and my anxiety was … More Taking Back Control.

Giving Up.

Going to put a mild trigger warning for anyone who doesn’t want to read about self-harm.  Dear Journal, I really want to write a positive post. I feel as though I’ve written so many negative ones recently. The truth is, I’m not in a good place. I’m not sure why exactly I feel like this. … More Giving Up.

Make It Count.

Dear Journal, This week has been incredibly tough. When I woke up this morning, something was different. My mind was different. There wasn’t this ‘black rainy cloud’ suffocating my mind. There was silence, and calmness. For those of you who know me, my mind is constantly made up of overthinking and ‘what if’s’ and stress. … More Make It Count.

I Miss Therapy.

Dear Journal, The past week has been awful. I haven’t been eating properly, and I know this is why I feel exhausted and have excruciating headaches. But I still can’t bring myself to eat. I’m still punishing myself. It seems to be a pattern of mine, no eating, sleeping and self harm are all the … More I Miss Therapy.