Lets Talk: The Mental Health Community.

Hello and welcome.

Today I wanted to share with you a new video that I’ve uploaded talking about the online mental health community.

Much love,

Hannah x

Monday Must Have.

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Myself and my partner use it every week. We use it to keep track of meals, work hours, birthdays and other things to remember. It’s been a great tool for us to organise our time better. My partner tends to work a lot and his hours can be quite spread out, using this board allows us to plan when we will be eating dinner together, when we will have free time to do things together and more.

It’s a life saver! And it’s an organisers dream product! I would strongly advise anyone to get one. It makes everyday tasks and organisation so simple and a lot less stressful.

Let me know if you use anything similar to organise your time.

– Hannah ❤

Wednesday Wisdom.

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It’s so easy to get into the rut of believing everything that your mind tells you. From experience I think it’s better to always follow your gut feeling.

For instance, there have been so many times in my life over the past year where I’ve thought, “should I do this?” or, “but what if?”

My conclusion is, life is too short to think like that. Go for it! It’s not a good decision, most likely there is another way to look at the situation. There is always a way to ‘fix’ a situation.

  • Keep a positive mind.
  • Do your best.
  • Keep fighting.
  • You can do this!

Thats everything from me! I hope you’re all having a good week this week!

– Hannah ❤

My Spring Make-up Bag.

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Who’s excited that it’s Friday? Do you have much planned for the weekend?

Today I want to share with you my Spring Make-up bag. These are products that I use on an every-day basis. I would say the products that I’m using now are the best for me skin and I’m very happy with the finished look after using them.

Some of the products you might recognise from one of my previous posts from last year. Yes, some are still the same as to be honest, I’m so in love with the product, I don’t want to change to something else right now.

✨I’m still using Urban Decay’s Naked 2 Basics Palette. I am so. in. love. with all of the shades in this palette and I have been from the moment I bought it. I’ve hit pan on about 4 of the shades and I will be definitely re-purchasing this again soon!

Collections Long Lasting Perfection concealer has been a long time love of mine. I don’t even know how many of these I have used up. It’s a product I make sure I never run out of!

✨Soap and Glory! Now, this is the first time that I’ve ever used their products and I can tell you now they have and will be products that I have in my makeup bag at all times. The eyeliner is just perfect for me. It’s not too think and it’s super easy to apply. It lasts all day which means I don’t have to top it up whilst I’m at work too. I’ve been on the hunt for a great high street mascara for a while now and finally, I’ve found it! Soap and Glory’s Think and Fast mascara is amazing! It allows me to apply the perfect amount of product to my lashes without looking too clumpy.

✨I’m quite lucky that I’m blessed with fairly good skin. My breakouts and very minimal and I’m able to manage my makeup and skincare routines quite well. I do however tend to get a little redness around my nose which I like to even out. I also get quite an oily t-zone which can cause difficulties in finding a good foundation that won’t enhance that. For a lot of time, I’ve avoided using foundations and just stuck the to concealer. That was until I found Loreal’s Infallible 24Hr Matte Foundation and I have to say! Where has this been all of my life? I use it everyday! It covers my redness and because it’s matte, its absolutely fine to apply on and around my t-zone.

✨I love a good lipstick and I’m forever changing brands but there is always one thing that is all of my lip products have, they are all pretty much the same shade of pink. I love pink! I think it goes perfect with my skin tone and it’s not too overpowering that its the only thing you focus on. At the minute I’m loving using Barry M’s Matte Me Up lip paint. It just glides on your lips and lasts all day. I recently featured it in one of my Monday Must Have posts. You can read that here.

That’s everything I’m pretty much carrying around in my make-up bag. I hope you enjoyed reading this post.

Let me know what make-up products you’re currently loving. If you have any product suggestions for me to try out, I would love to read about them too. 

Have a lovely weekend!

– Hannah ❤

Must Have Monday!

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I’ve been so excited to share this post with you!

Recently I have been so in love with this product! I love the shade of colour and it stays on all day! What more could I want from a lipstick?

The boyfriend and I went to Canterbury today and I decided that I would wear this and I’m so happy that I did. It stayed on even after eating lunch and drinking coffee. So it’s a solid 10/10 from me! 

I’ve had this lipstick for a while but it wasn’t till I was talking to someone at work about it that I decided to get it out and give it a proper try out. I always feel so much more confident when I’ve got lipstick on so it was definitely a nice confidence boost for me today!

Go Go GO GO! Buy it! You will not regret it. (FYI This post is not sponsored)

Enjoy the rest of your Easter Monday!

– Hannah ❤

My First Few Days In Kent.

It’s been a busy week this week and it’s only Wednesday!

On Monday I moved all the way from my parent’s house in Hull all the way down to Dover. My boyfriend and I have got a flat here.

The move went fairly easy. We got everything in the flat, my dad and sister stayed a little while before setting off back to Hull.

I didn’t really do much yesterday asides from unpacking and going food shopping with Josh.

I’m feeling much more settled today, most of my stuff is unpacked and in place. I have been asked to have some coffee shop training next Monday-Wednesday which is exciting. You all know how much I love coffee!  I managed to register myself at the doctors too, that makes me feel a bit more at ease for when I need to get some more medication.

I also had a bit of time to walk along the seafront. It was just so beautiful. I will definetely be spending more time down there when the weather gets a bit warmer.

I’m so glad that I have made the decision to move down here. I think this is going to be a really positive step for me.

How is your week going?

– Hannah ❤

An Active Approach To Positive Thinking.

Hello lovelies!

I hope you’re having a fantastic weekend so far. I just wanted to come on here and just share a few things with you.

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Since the start of January I’ve started keeping a positive journal. It’s similar to the positive note jars that I have, however I find that keeping my positives like this is a much better way of expressing how I feel.

I’m a huge believer in daily affirmations! For me, to write down everyday positive things from my days forces me to see how positive even a ‘bad day’ was.

I find that when I have a bad day I tend to let it consume me. (Which is something that is easy to do) However, this year I had decided to take a more hands on approach.

Instead off falling asleep having feeling like I’ve had the worst day, I force myself to get my journal out and start picking my day apart. So far it’s working very well for me. I told my therapist about it last Monday, she agrees that it’s a great thing for my recovery process.

How do you deal with negative thoughts? Do you keep a positive journal?

– Hannah

Asking For Help.

Asking for help is something that I’m not particularly good at. I would much rather struggle in silence and pretend that everything is okay rather than reaching out.

To me, (and I would like to make this crystal clear, this ONLY applies to myself) I think that asking for help makes me weak. This is a lie. I think that asking for help makes me look vulnerable, irritating and damn right strange. Again, these are all lies. 

Now, over the years I have sent hundreds of e-mails to people making sure they are okay and offering an ear anytime they want to talk. Each and every time I tell people, reach out and ask for help. It doesn’t make you weak. Asking for help does not mean that you are strange, crazy or attention seeking. It shows that you value yourself. It shows courage and strength.

The past few days have been particularly stressful for me. I took a week off work to go to London. I will get around to writing about that very soon. Returning back to work has been very stressful for me. I’m easily irritated and this can often cause me problems at work. (I’m working on it)

Yesterday, I reached out for help. I called the team that are in charge of the community teams. Its the same group of people that work alongside my psychiatrist. I received a vague answer off them. After my home visits stopped, I got transferred over to a mental health community team, I called them. I had to leave a voicemail as there was no answer. 

So, I turned to Twitter.

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The response was overwhelming. I’m so grateful for the people that follow my blog or follow me on Twitter. You guys have no idea how grateful I am. ❤

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It’s NOT okay to suffer in silence.

DON’T let anyone tell you that you could have it worse.

Your feelings ARE valid.

Your triggers are NOT pathetic.

It’s okay to cry.

It’s okay to ask for help.

You ARE worth it.

Life IS worth living.

Please please please don’t be afraid to ask for help. As always, my inbox is always for those of you who want to chat. Head over to the contact section of this blog and shoot me an e-mail. ❤

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Taking Back Control.

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Going and telling a complete stranger that something is wrong is no easy task. It takes courage, strength and confidence.

All of which in recent months I have been struggling with.

Yesterday was my first day back at my original store. I was really anxious. I got changed into my uniform and my anxiety was sky high. What if someone asks me about what I did to my arm? I had prepared an excuse. I practiced it in the mirror for the past 5 days. I was as ready as I would ever be.

I kept telling myself that it would be okay and all I had to do was get through these next few hours. I needed to put on a smile and it would soon be over.

I left work early and I made my way to my doctors appointment. I had prepared a solid list of the things that I wanted to discuss. This appointment was incredibly important.

I got sat down. The doctor asked how I was. My immediate response was “yeah, I’m good thank you. How are you?” As soon as the words left my mouth I corrected myself. “Actually no, I’m not okay. Things are really bad. But it’s difficult to talk about. I have a list.”

*Shows list*

We continued talking. Long story short, I will continue taking my current medication. She has referred me a to a psychiatrist. So now I’m waiting. She checked the SH on my arms, it’s all okay. Not infected.

I’m feeling rather positive. Today I worked up the courage to film a video for mental health awareness week. I’m really nervous about uploading it. But I’m proud of myself for getting up and telling my story.

I hope you’re having a great week so far. ❤

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Giving Up.

Going to put a mild trigger warning for anyone who doesn’t want to read about self-harm. 


Dear Journal,

I really want to write a positive post. I feel as though I’ve written so many negative ones recently. The truth is, I’m not in a good place. I’m not sure why exactly I feel like this. I have so many lovely people in my life. Most of which are there for me most of the day and night. I’m doing well at my job. I have a comfortable bed to sleep in. I can afford tea and food and other luxury items.

But I feel depressed. Yet happy at the same time. Does that make sense? I’m not sure it does, but that’s how I feel. 

Today I did really well. For the first time since I started self harming again, I actually stopped myself from doing it this morning. I forced myself to get up and eat breakfast. I had a cup of tea and watched some YouTube.

I forced myself to go to the gym. I was anxious about going because of my arm. I mean no one can see it as I was wearing a long sleeved workout top. The workout was great. Today I’ve been so productive. I walked the puppy and ate three meals.

But now, my mood is sinking. And what makes it worse is, I can’t stop it. I’ve been sat in my room crying for the past hour trying to stop myself from self harming because I know that will just make me more angry at myself.

The bottom line is, I don’t like myself. And I don’t want to be here. I have had enough of feeling like this. I feel in pain.

I want everything to be okay.

To the friends that will read this, I’m sorry that this is so depressing. I’m sorry that I’ve been snappy at you recently. I’m really not myself. Hopefully someday I will be fixed. But for now, I think I should just hold on tight.

As always, thank you for reading ❤

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