Hey there, I hope that you’re having a great Sunday. It’s been such a long time since I’ve posted here. Life has just kinda got in the way and the more time that has passed, the more and more I felt anxious about posting.
I guess I should start by doing a re-cap about what I’ve been up to.
Christmas was amazing. Josh and I spent our first Christmas in our own place. We went to Josh’s mum’s house in the afternoon and we also stayed over. We played lots of family games, ate lots of good food and we also exchanged presents. On boxing day we went to Ramsgate to spend the day with Josh’s dads side of the family. We had a late Christmas with my family early Jan.
We went to a New Years Eve party which was so much fun. We played lots of games and maybe one or two glasses of Prosecco. Lol.
I spent January working out in the gym, working lots of hours at work and working on some of my new years resolutions. I will talk about them in a post early next week.
Last week I had a long awaited operation on my foot so I’ve been resting up whilst it heals. So that means, no walks, no gym and pretty much not doing anything for at least the first week. I’m back at the hospital tomorrow and hopefully they will be removing the cast and fitting a shoe so I will be able to walk on it.
But yeah, I just thought I would check in and say hey. Let me know what you’ve been up to and if you’ve set any new years resolutions. I would love to know what you guys are challenging yourselves to do this year!
It’s got to that time of year again where your skincare products need changing up. The weather has gotten pretty cold over the past few days in England. My skin is certainly feeling the change in weather.
I picked these up from Superdrug and Boots last month last month. I decided that it was time to change up what facial wash I was using and this one has been doing wonders for my skin. It leaves it feeling so clean and refreshed. It’s also got exfoliating bits in it which is great for my dry areas around the edges of my face.
The moisturisers are from Superdrug, it’s their new de-stress range so I thought I would give it a go. My skin has been feeling quite tired over the last couple of months from bad sleep so these seemed like a perfect fit for me right now. Overall I’m pretty impressed with them both. I use the everyday day and night moisturiser more than the night mask if I’m honest, just because I feel it’s a bit think. I will continue to give it a go though, I think during the winter it will be great. The day and night one id great though! It’s not greasy and I can still apply makeup over the top which is always a bonus.
Now onto the Boho Beach Jelly! For such a long time now I’ve hated having curly hair, then I found this range of products and managing my curly hair is no longer a chore. It leaves my hair feeling light and it really brings out my natural curls.
Those are all the current skincare products I’m currently using. I’m going to try and film a skincare routine video for my YouTube channel. I will try and get that done in the next couple of weeks.
I’m going to place a trigger warning on this post for anyone who suffers with self harm. I urge you take care with reading this post. If you are easily triggered I urge you to skip this post or read with caution.
If you are having thoughts of hurting yourself or feel as though you are unable to keep yourself safe. I strongly urge you to contact either Samaritans on 116 123 or Mind on 0300 123 3393.
This week has been particularly difficult for me. It’s been just over a month since I have self harmed. I’m feeling particularly proud of myself, it’s been a tough month to say the least!
The thoughts are definitely still there, but I’ve been working on getting some alternatives in place for when I feel urges to self harm. Again, I’m super happy with the progress I’ve made over the past month!
I’ve been paying extra attention to what exactly triggers me. Whether that being objects, people, situations; I’ve made it my mission to identify what triggers my thoughts of self harm. Once I’m aware of my triggers, it’s easier to avoid being triggered in the future.
I won’t go into detail of the things that trigger me. I will however talk about how I deal with triggering situations.
Cold shower (works the same as ice)
Go for a walk (Fresh air can clear your mind – I also particularly like standing outside in the rain, it can be quite refreshing)
Write (Writing is a great way to get your feelings down and out of your mind)
Speak to work about how I feel.
Use ice. (This is great as it’s painful but not in a harmful way. It also numbs my arm. I would strongly suggest trying this when you are getting strong urges to SH)
Out and About:
Take yourself away from the situation.
Go to somewhere you feel safe.
Listen to music.
Of course any of these can apply to any place or situation but these are just the ones that I have been using. 🙂
It’s important to keep yourself safe.
You are loved, cared for and wanted. It’s important to look and identify the positives that you have in your life. Focus on them and write a list of the reasons you stay alive.
As always, my e-mail is always open for those of you who want to talk.
I’ve wrote about this topic quite a lot on my blog over the past couple of months. I want to constantly be improving myself. I want to constantly be moving forward, trying new things and improving myself.
A few weeks ago someone said to me, for a 23 year old, you’ve ‘done a lot of stuff’. Since then, I’ve been thinking about what they actually meant by that, as in my eyes, I’ve not done ‘enough’. I feel that I should have achieved more by this age.
I guess I’m just too hard on myself for my own good sometimes.
I started to describe my self improvement trait as ‘itchy feet’. I want to be constantly moving. The concept of being ‘fed up’ or doing the same thing just scares the living shit out of me. But with all that being said, I’m also afraid of change. Kind of ironic isn’t it?
I just don’t like ‘standing still’ metaphorically speaking. There has to be a purpose. Before I went to South Korea, I worked a crappy job but it was all with a purpose in mind. I worked and worked and worked to save money to move away. And I did it.
This is my favourite personality trait. I like this about myself. I always want more. I don’t want to settle. I always want to keep striving for new experiences.
I’ve been trying my best to eat healthily and exercise regularly. It’s making me feel much better and I’m really hoping that I manage to continue this cycle.
I want to share with you what I ate yesterday.
I love love love the Oat So Simple golden syrup! It’s hands down my favourite.
I put together a simple salad. I lightly fried the mushrooms and peppers in toasted sesame oil and garlic.
I made a vegetable cooked dinner with vegetable gravy. It was very delicious!
Over the past month I have been preparing most of my meals in advance. I’ve tried to do meal prep on Thursdays and Sunday’s. It’s been working out quite well I feel. It’s helped me be more decisive about what I want to eat, as well as helping me cook healthy and balanced meals.
I work a job that changes my shifts every week, so having a solid meal prep schedule helps me keep on top of eating a balanced amount of meals. I’m the sort of person that could quite easily skip meals and not think too much about it. Having a meal plan allows me to work my meals times around my hours at work. The key to keep this going is to stay organised.