Asking For Help.

Asking for help is something that I’m not particularly good at. I would much rather struggle in silence and pretend that everything is okay rather than reaching out.

To me, (and I would like to make this crystal clear, this ONLY applies to myself) I think that asking for help makes me weak. This is a lie. I think that asking for help makes me look vulnerable, irritating and damn right strange. Again, these are all lies. 

Now, over the years I have sent hundreds of e-mails to people making sure they are okay and offering an ear anytime they want to talk. Each and every time I tell people, reach out and ask for help. It doesn’t make you weak. Asking for help does not mean that you are strange, crazy or attention seeking. It shows that you value yourself. It shows courage and strength.

The past few days have been particularly stressful for me. I took a week off work to go to London. I will get around to writing about that very soon. Returning back to work has been very stressful for me. I’m easily irritated and this can often cause me problems at work. (I’m working on it)

Yesterday, I reached out for help. I called the team that are in charge of the community teams. Its the same group of people that work alongside my psychiatrist. I received a vague answer off them. After my home visits stopped, I got transferred over to a mental health community team, I called them. I had to leave a voicemail as there was no answer. 

So, I turned to Twitter.

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The response was overwhelming. I’m so grateful for the people that follow my blog or follow me on Twitter. You guys have no idea how grateful I am. ❤

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It’s NOT okay to suffer in silence.

DON’T let anyone tell you that you could have it worse.

Your feelings ARE valid.

Your triggers are NOT pathetic.

It’s okay to cry.

It’s okay to ask for help.

You ARE worth it.

Life IS worth living.

Please please please don’t be afraid to ask for help. As always, my inbox is always for those of you who want to chat. Head over to the contact section of this blog and shoot me an e-mail. ❤

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Why I Moved To South Korea. 

 Everyone has their own reasons for doing things. 
In England I felt trapped almost suffocated. I just didn’t know what to do. I just knew that being in England just wasnt helpful and I felt that I needed to leave. I’ve always wanted to travel. Asia especially. It was South Korea that I was drawn to. It was something about the language, the food and the culture. I just remember thinking that it was something that I wanted to be apart of. So that was it…! My decision to go was made!

As children (in England at least) you are brought up in the world to study —-> figure out what job or career you want —-> then work. You’re expected to figure your entire life out whilst you’re still at school. 

The system doesn’t allow for people to not know what they want to do with their lives. 

For a big part of my life I was okay. I knew exactly what I wanted to do in life and where I wanted to go. All the way through high school —-> through sixth form —->  through University. I had an incredible amount of passion for filmmaking. I figured that filmmaking was something that I would do for the rest of my life. 

I remember saying to myself at one point “I don’t understand people who don’t have it figured out…” And “It’s not difficult, find something you love and do that for the rest of your life.” Oh how wrong I was! 

I graduated University and I didn’t have a clue of what I was doing with my life! I was lost. 

Eventually, I had accepted that maybe media wasn’t for me. But, where does that leave me…? At the bottom and staring up at what seemed like mountains of different decisions to make! 

For months I felt sorry for myself. I wallowed in self-pity for a good 8 months. Then I decided I couldn’t live my life like that anymore. I learned to accept that it was okay that I didn’t have a ‘life map’ because realistically, who does? 

I needed to find myself, and that’s why I came to South Korea. BEST DECISION EVER! 🙂 

“I’m just a girl trying to find her place in this world” 

– Hannah 

P.S. Have you struggled to find what you want to do in your life? If so, how did you overcome it.