New Year, New Perspective.

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Everyone experiences difficult times. Since returning from South Korea I’ve been going through a rough time. I’m not adjusting back into England very well as well as a few other things.

Of course I have missed England, mostly my family and friends. I’ve missed home cooked foods. Especially roast chicken dinners! As much as I love Korea, there are some things in England that I do prefer. Christmas for example!

Since coming back I’ve gotten myself into this rut that I can’t seem to break out of. I have to force myself to eat. Going to sleep isn’t easy. Damn insomnia! When I eventually fall to sleep, I find it hard to wake up. Then I have a lingering migraine all day. I think it’s due to stress. I can only do so much. I’m trying, I guess that’s the main thing.

Next year is going to be different. What I’ve worked out recently is, it’s important to pick out the people in your life who truly care. The other’s that are in your life who don’t ask you how you are, even know they understand that you’re going through a tough time. Those are the people I need to let go of. They are negative and self-centred people.

As cliche as it sounds, you do only live once. And it’s important to remember that THIS IS YOUR LIFE. Not someone else’s. You cannot constantly be following what someone else wants to do all the time. You cannot keep asking them “how are you, did you have a good day?” to which they respond with, “Yeah thanks.” then the conversation ends. They never ask about you. Or how your day was. Or what you did. Friendships/relationships work both ways. It takes equal effort from both sides.

I’m excited to start the new year. I have lots of things planned. I’m planning on taking a TOPIK test (Korean proficiency language test) next April in London. I’m thinking about doing a masters degree, maybe in events management or business. I want to start a YouTube channel, like a proper one! Haha. I want to get back into filmmaking again.

It’s important to find something you love and go for it. Life is too short to be stopped from doing something that you love because of circumstances or people.

I cannot wait to see what the new year brings~

– Hannah ❤

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Why I Moved To South Korea. 

 Everyone has their own reasons for doing things. 
In England I felt trapped almost suffocated. I just didn’t know what to do. I just knew that being in England just wasnt helpful and I felt that I needed to leave. I’ve always wanted to travel. Asia especially. It was South Korea that I was drawn to. It was something about the language, the food and the culture. I just remember thinking that it was something that I wanted to be apart of. So that was it…! My decision to go was made!

As children (in England at least) you are brought up in the world to study —-> figure out what job or career you want —-> then work. You’re expected to figure your entire life out whilst you’re still at school. 

The system doesn’t allow for people to not know what they want to do with their lives. 

For a big part of my life I was okay. I knew exactly what I wanted to do in life and where I wanted to go. All the way through high school —-> through sixth form —->  through University. I had an incredible amount of passion for filmmaking. I figured that filmmaking was something that I would do for the rest of my life. 

I remember saying to myself at one point “I don’t understand people who don’t have it figured out…” And “It’s not difficult, find something you love and do that for the rest of your life.” Oh how wrong I was! 

I graduated University and I didn’t have a clue of what I was doing with my life! I was lost. 

Eventually, I had accepted that maybe media wasn’t for me. But, where does that leave me…? At the bottom and staring up at what seemed like mountains of different decisions to make! 

For months I felt sorry for myself. I wallowed in self-pity for a good 8 months. Then I decided I couldn’t live my life like that anymore. I learned to accept that it was okay that I didn’t have a ‘life map’ because realistically, who does? 

I needed to find myself, and that’s why I came to South Korea. BEST DECISION EVER! 🙂 

“I’m just a girl trying to find her place in this world” 

– Hannah 

P.S. Have you struggled to find what you want to do in your life? If so, how did you overcome it.