Dear Journal, It’s been a while. I feel like I start every journal post saying this… I should post more often! Things have been pretty up and down. I’ve been finding it increasingly difficult to maintain my mood. Work has been okay. Could be better though if I’m honest. Everyday is the same, I put … More Monday Thoughts.
After my previous relationship, I truly felt like I could never care or trust someone new. I thought that I didn’t deserve to be loved. I thought that I could never find someone to accept my strange and quirky traits. I thought that I could never find someone who would be just weird as me. … More I’ve Met Someone.
Asking for help is something that I’m not particularly good at. I would much rather struggle in silence and pretend that everything is okay rather than reaching out. To me, (and I would like to make this crystal clear, this ONLY applies to myself) I think that asking for help makes me weak. This is … More Asking For Help.
Dear Journal, This week has been one of the most difficult weeks so far this year. At the beginning of the week I had a bit of a problem at work. I have been extra agitated and it’s caused quite a bit of friction between the people that I work with. I’ve been working on … More Nobody Said It Will Be Easy.
Dear Journal, Where have I been? Good question! I have been… busy. The truth is, things have been pretty bad for me. I’ve been very stressed. My moods have been so up and down. SH is at it’s all time worst. I have been and visited a psychiatrist for the first time a few weeks … More Where Have I Been…?
You are NOT good enough. You are too hard to love. No-one will ever love or accept you. You are ugly. You are fat. Everyone hates you. You will fail if you try. You are crazy. You are stupid. Everyone would be better off if you were not here. Lets go back through that list … More Lies That Depression Tells Me.
Boyfriend! Well, hello! Firstly, I would like to say that I’m really proud of myself for learning how to open myself up to another person again. I’m sure we have already discussed about ex’s by this point, and as you probably already know, my ex’s have been pretty… shitty, to say the least! You are probably … More Dear Future BF
Going and telling a complete stranger that something is wrong is no easy task. It takes courage, strength and confidence. All of which in recent months I have been struggling with. Yesterday was my first day back at my original store. I was really anxious. I got changed into my uniform and my anxiety was … More Taking Back Control.
Going to put a mild trigger warning for anyone who doesn’t want to read about self-harm. Dear Journal, I really want to write a positive post. I feel as though I’ve written so many negative ones recently. The truth is, I’m not in a good place. I’m not sure why exactly I feel like this. … More Giving Up.
Dear Journal, This week has been incredibly tough. When I woke up this morning, something was different. My mind was different. There wasn’t this ‘black rainy cloud’ suffocating my mind. There was silence, and calmness. For those of you who know me, my mind is constantly made up of overthinking and ‘what if’s’ and stress. … More Make It Count.