After seeing this hashtag going around on Twitter this morning I just knew that I had to get involved. Created by The Blurt Foundation. I’m all about things like this, it’s such a fantastic way to get people talking about mental health. Raising awareness about mental health needs to be taken more seriously than it ever has done before. It’s important that people feel that they can reach out without feeling pressured or embarrassed.
I came across Me and My Mental Health Matter’s Blog and loved the questions they used so I decided that I would answer the same questions on here.
When did you first notice your condition?
I think I was first aware of my condition from the age of 13. I didn’t fully understand or know exactly what it was. I just knew that I didn’t feel ‘right’. I didn’t fit in, but not in a ‘normal’ typical teenage not fitting in way, as many people around me felt thats the phase I was going through. I knew something was wrong and that I didn’t feel right.
It wasn’t till the age of 18 that my doctors finally gave me the ‘depression and anxiety’ label.
When did you first get help for your condition?
I first saw a school councillor at the age of 15. She helped me with stress management. That was the first time I was introduced to breathing techniques and meditation.
I saw three different therapists throughout my time at University. As well as a crisis team and sought help from the A&E department.
Do you take medication?
Yes. Over the past 6 years I’ve taken it on and off. At the moment I take two different dosages of Venlafaxine. It’s the only one I’ve been on that’s worked. Before Venlafaxine, no medication was working so my doctor referred me to a psychiatrist and they doubled my dose. I’ve been on this dose for the past year and 8 months. I will probably be on them for the rest of my life, but to be honest, if they help me live my life then I am okay with that.
What do you miss out on because of your condition?
In short, yes I do miss out on some things. But, as I get older I realise that my life is what I make it. Travel makes me anxious at times, but I take small journeys to challenge myself.
Would you get rid of your condition if you could?
No. I don’t think I would. It would have made my life a hell of a lot easier, but I wouldn’t have the acceptance and compassion for life that I have now. Yes there are many situations that make me anxious. There are days I feel like I can’t face the world. There are days where I feel like I can’t ‘do life’ anymore. But, I keep fighting. I keep living each day as it comes because I might feel depressed and hopeless one day but the next day I might wake up and be happy.
We All Have A Story. It’s your story and everyones is different. Keep fighting and pushing for what you want in life.
Life is so worth it.
Good morning, I hope that you all had a great weekend!
Today I wanted to share with you a hand soap that I picked up from the poundshop last week.
Love Parma violet sweets? Then this is the hand-wash for you! I can’t get enough of it.
What is your favourite scent of hand-wash?
P.S. I still have some bubblegum flavoured hand-wash in the cupboard.
Hello and welcome.
Today I wanted to share with you a new video that I’ve uploaded talking about the online mental health community.
Hello again, it’s Hannah here.
Today I wanted to share my August goals with you guys!
- Progress with doing yoga for stress management and flexibility.
- Upload more consistently on my blog and Instagram.
- Cut back on caffeine.
- Read two books.
- Treat myself more kindly.
What goals are you setting yourself this month?
It has taken me years to be brave enough to walk around comfortably in a t-shirt.
I walked around Calais last weekend in shorts and a t-shirt.
It was such an achievement for me! 👍🏻💛
⭐️ Your mental health does not define you.
⭐️ Your scars do not define you.
⭐️ Your struggles are a sign of your inner strength.
Keep being you and you will go far. Work on accepting who you are and where you want to go. Make no apologies for who you are and just do your best!
It’s so easy to get into the rut of believing everything that your mind tells you. From experience I think it’s better to always follow your gut feeling.
For instance, there have been so many times in my life over the past year where I’ve thought, “should I do this?” or, “but what if?”
My conclusion is, life is too short to think like that. Go for it! It’s not a good decision, most likely there is another way to look at the situation. There is always a way to ‘fix’ a situation.
- Keep a positive mind.
- Do your best.
- Keep fighting.
- You can do this!
Thats everything from me! I hope you’re all having a good week this week!
– Hannah ❤
In the past, my previous therapists have always suggested that I keep a journal. I’ve kept a journal on and off for about 13 years. During a bad patch last year I decided that having those journals were holding me back from becoming the person that I wanted to be, so I made the decision to burn them.
This month I decided that I would start to use the journal that my sister had bought me. Only when I fill in the pages now, I don’t use the same format that I have used previously. I just found that writing about my day and how I feel wasn’t that helpful for me.
I decided that I would pick a moment before I go to bed, maybe light a candle or two and reflect on the day. I would write down all of the positives that I could think of that happened during the day. I always find that if I have a bad day, I tend to dwell on the fact that it was a bad day and allow it to consume me.
I don’t allow myself to write those thoughts down. I try and just focus on the good things that I have happened that day!
This is really working for me right now. 😀
Do you keep a journal?
– Hannah ❤
This session I found particularly difficult and emotional draining. We were discussing ‘Understanding Personality Development’.
We discussed how growing up in particular tough or stifling environments can stint personality development. This can cause a person to feel:
- Lack of trust
- Not getting close to people
- Feeling Abandoned
- Limited self-confidence
- Poor self-worth
- Poor emotional & behavioural self-regulation
- Difficulty communicating
A lot of these I can relate to, and that is what I found difficult from this session. It opened my eyes to a lot of reasons why I might feel like I do.
A key point that was mentioned in this session was that, when we are younger (as a child) we have a certain way of reacting to certain situations. As we grow up, if these habits aren’t changed and developed, it can lead to outbursts, mood swings and built up anger.
In these sessions we are aiming to look at these behaviours and begin to work on changing these habits.
We also discussed about mental health in the workplace and how the people around us respond when they know about mental illness.
I’m lucky, I gain a lot of support from my managers and workplace, they are incredibly understanding about my mental health providing I’m honest and I communicate how I’m feeling.
Overall, I think that these sessions are helping me.
I hope you all have a great week. 🙂
– Hannah ❤
I’m a few days late with this post. I figured I would write a post for Mental Health Awareness Day anyway as I feel that we should be open in talking about mental health all the time, not just for one day. I’ve kind of struggled to find the words to write this post and I’m not sure why.
Mental Health Awareness Day was on the 10th October, it was meant to highlight mental health within the workplace.
A little over a month ago I decided to take some time off work to focus on my mental health. I wasn’t in a good place, now without going into too much detail I just didn’t find myself wanting to live my life anymore. I didn’t feel as though it was worth it. My body and my mind hurt. Emotionally, I was a wreck. Everyday that went by I felt worse and worse. It got to the point that I felt so numb and helpless I had to go and see my doctor and get signed on sick. Going on sick was the absolute last resort for me. Anyone who knows me, knows how much I love to work!
I’m so lucky that my workplace has been so understanding about my mental health! Understanding is an understatement really, they really have been supportive. I’m so so grateful that I have this support network, as I know that many of you don’t have this. I’ve heard so many stories about people who have lost their jobs or been asked to resign from their positions. Mental health in the workplace is becoming a subject that is being more and more talked about. Mental health should be treated just the same as a physical illness. Just because you can’t see the problem does not mean that it’s not there! Mental health creates physical symptoms, I think it’s really important to acknowledge that!
I wanted to talk about how it’s incredibly important to make the people around you (not just at work) aware if you are struggling. No-one should be struggling in silence. So many people feel like they are alone in trying to manage with mental health issues. I can assure you, you are most definitely not alone! There are so many people in this world who are here to listen and are here to help.
For me, taking that time away from work was difficult. I had to fill my days with things to do otherwise I could have easily just laid in bed all day! I took time to reflect. I took time to think about my future. I created a positivity board. (I’m sure that I will blog about that in the future) It’s been really helpful actually! It’s helped me think about my future in a positive light.
After returning to work I have felt my mental health take a dip again although I’m enjoying getting back into a solid routine. I’m just trying to take it a day at a time!
How do you deal with your mental health in the workplace?
– Hannah ❤