This Will Be My Year.

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Welcome to 2018!

When reflecting on the previous year, many people have the habit of looking negatively and only seeing the bad things. I found myself doing this until I sat down and really focused on all the good things that happened to me.

In no particular order, here some of the things/achievements of 2018.

  • Went and saw my first psychiatrist and was diagnosed with BPD. (I was brave!)
  • I started my first job since returning from South Korea.
  • I met Josh and fell in love with him. ❤
  • I went and travelled London (properly) for the first time.
  • I realised my inner worth. (This was difficult!)
  • At the beginning of the year, I walked away from a toxic and abusive relationship. (I learnt that I deserved much MUCH better)
  • Had so many amazing opportunities to collaborate with other bloggers and brands. (I feel so grateful)
  • I started (and finished) group therapy (MBT)
  • I learnt how to incorporate more self-care into my everyday routine.
  • I joined the gym.

Now! Thats a pretty awesome list of things. (At least, I think so)

I’m sure there are many more things that I’ve forgotten. I had a great year! 2017 taught me so many things, especially about myself.

I’m grateful that I have the chance to continue building my life in 2018.

How would you describe your 2017?

– Hannah ❤

Christmas Eve.

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Welcome to Blogmas day 24!

Today is Christmas Eve! How quickly has December gone?

Blogmas is coming to an end, I cannot tell you just how sad I am about this. I’ve really enjoyed writing a post everyday. I feel that it has really kept me focused and motivated. I will be definitely doing Blogmas again next year.

I’m not sure whether or not I will be writing a post tomorrow. However I will be sharing my Christmas day over on my Instagram, so be sure to head over there to follow my day!

This morning, Josh and I got up early and headed over to a local restaurant for breakfast then we took a nice walk back to his mum’s house.

Today has been pretty relaxed to be honest. His family loved the cupcakes I made so that made me feel happy.

I’m very nervous to give Josh his presents, I really hope he likes them!

What will you be doing this evening?

– Hannah ❤

The Christmas Tag.

Welcome to Blogmas day 17.

Today I decided I would take part in a Christmas tag.

What is your favourite Christmas Movie?

Honestly, this changes every year! This year I’ve been loving ‘A Christmas Prince’. It’s super sweet. I mean who doesn’t love a cheesy adorable film at this time of year?

What is your Favourite Christmas Song?

Oooh. I have so many! Um, maybe Last Christmas by Wham! I love it. I cannot listen to it enough. I just feel like it never gets boring.

Do You Open Presents on Christmas Eve or Christmas Morning?

 

Christmas morning, of course!

What is your Favourite Christmas Scent?

Good question! Probably cinnamon and Snow Fairy from Lush, because… well… it’s just lush! Haha!

What tops your tree?

We used to put a star on the top of the tree. Then we had an angel for a while. This year we don’t have anything on top, maybe I should add something on top now.

Is your tree real or fake?

Fake. Although when I was very young, my parents used to buy a real tree at Christmas.

Have you ever gone Christmas Caroling?

No, I’m way too shy to go…

Although, having said that, when I was younger, me and my siblings used to sing in a choir and we used to do Christmas concerts.

White or Coloured Lights?

Oooh. Both! They can both look lovely.

But I would say if I had to pick one, I would probably say white lights.

Eggnog or Hot Chocolate?

Hot chocolate definitely!

Are You A Buddy the Elf or Ebenezer Scrooge?

I LOVE CHRISTMAS so… Buddy the Elf 100% I wish it could be Christmas everyday… 

When do you put up your tree/decorations?

My family always puts them up in the second week of December. If it was up to me, they would go up on November 1st. (Maybe when I move out 😉 )

If you could travel anywhere for the holiday season, where would it be?

Probably Germany. I really really want to go to their Christmas markets.

Do you make new years resolutions?

Always, but I’m not going to give any of them away here… You’ll have to check back on my blog in the next couple of weeks.

I hope that you enjoyed this tag. If you decide to take part I would love for you to tag me so I can read your answers. 

– Hannah ❤

Giving Up.

Going to put a mild trigger warning for anyone who doesn’t want to read about self-harm. 


Dear Journal,

I really want to write a positive post. I feel as though I’ve written so many negative ones recently. The truth is, I’m not in a good place. I’m not sure why exactly I feel like this. I have so many lovely people in my life. Most of which are there for me most of the day and night. I’m doing well at my job. I have a comfortable bed to sleep in. I can afford tea and food and other luxury items.

But I feel depressed. Yet happy at the same time. Does that make sense? I’m not sure it does, but that’s how I feel. 

Today I did really well. For the first time since I started self harming again, I actually stopped myself from doing it this morning. I forced myself to get up and eat breakfast. I had a cup of tea and watched some YouTube.

I forced myself to go to the gym. I was anxious about going because of my arm. I mean no one can see it as I was wearing a long sleeved workout top. The workout was great. Today I’ve been so productive. I walked the puppy and ate three meals.

But now, my mood is sinking. And what makes it worse is, I can’t stop it. I’ve been sat in my room crying for the past hour trying to stop myself from self harming because I know that will just make me more angry at myself.

The bottom line is, I don’t like myself. And I don’t want to be here. I have had enough of feeling like this. I feel in pain.

I want everything to be okay.

To the friends that will read this, I’m sorry that this is so depressing. I’m sorry that I’ve been snappy at you recently. I’m really not myself. Hopefully someday I will be fixed. But for now, I think I should just hold on tight.

As always, thank you for reading ❤

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Valentines Day.

Happy Valentines Day! ❤ ❤ ❤

Whether you’re single or in a relationship, I hope you have a lovely day regardless.

Did you tell your crush you like them?

Did you tell your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife that you love them? 

What do you have planned for this special day?

I won’t be doing much today. I have work during the day. Maybe I will do some yoga. Then in the evening I will curl up on the sofa with a cup of tea, a bag of mini eggs and watch a few episodes on Netflix. Perfect evening ❤

This year I’ve created a Valentines Day playlist on Spotify. Listen to it here. 🙂

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Enjoy the rest of your day ❤

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Check out some of my recent posts:

5 Ways To Say I Love You.

GRWM | Valentines Edition

Hello February.

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Dear Journal,

Where has this month gone?

I literally got zero sleep last night. I drank a mug of coffee this morning before work and I powered through. I’m so glad that I have two days off now. I have so many blog things I want to get started on for the coming month.

January was pretty great, but I am glad to say goodbye. I’m sure that February will bring some even more awesome things my way.

Yesterday I uploaded a post about February. Read it here 🙂

I’m going to crack on with some yoga. Have a late dinner. Paint my nails. Then get onto planning tomorrow’s shoot. I’m excited! 🙂

How is your week going so far? ❤

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Have a read of some of my latest posts:

Things I’m Loving This January 

Saying NO To Anxiety

Be Kind To Yourself, Always

Goals Are The Key To Motivation

Reflecting On January.

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Overall, this month has been great. Tomorrow is the final day of the month. I can’t believe how fast this year is going already.

At the start of this month I was looking for a job, and now I’m currently working. I feel so much more in control of my life. Having this job definitely makes me feel like I have a lot more options in my life.  I feel much more free and happy. 🙂

This month I’ve really learnt how to appreciate all of the amazing things and the amazing people that I have in my life. I’m incredibly lucky. I want to continue feeling this positive.

I’m feeling so accomplished.

  1. I have a job.
  2. I’ve read this months book.
  3. I’ve kept to my weekly blog schedule.
  4. I’ve eaten more healthily.
  5. I’ve done yoga more.
  6. And most importantly, I’ve made time for myself. Self-care is so important. It’s so easy to always be cornered about others and forget to take care of yourself. 

Tonight I’m planning on going to bed early, and I will start reading a new book. Then I will be fully refreshed for work tomorrow morning. 🙂

How was your January?

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Check out some of my recent posts ❤

Things I’m Loving This January 

Gratitude Challenge – A Family Member

Beating Those Winter Blues

Things I Do When I’m Feeling Down

The Power Of Positivity

 

Things I’m Loving This January.

Wow! January came and went before I knew it. It only feels like yesterday that I was writing about my December Favourites.

I have so many things that I have been loving this month. I can’t wait to share them with you. 🙂

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  • FiloFax

I don’t know what I would do without my planner. It goes everywhere with me. I love planning. I plan everything from an hour by hour schedule of my day, to tracking habits that I do on a daily basis to blog and video ideas. My dream job would be to be hired as a personal assistant for someone. Handling schedules, meetings and everything and anything organisational based. I would be obsessed!

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  • Barry M Nail Varnish

I’ve been loving this colour this month. Throughout December I mostly stuck to Christmas themed colours but now that Spring will be approaching soon enough I wanted to start wearing brighter colours. This pink is the perfect tone to brighten your look.

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  • Positive Jars

This has really helped me feel more positive this month. I will continue to add to this jar throughout February.

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  • Yoga Mat

I’ve really gotten into doing yoga this month. I’ve felt so much better for in fitting 10 minutes of yoga into my day.

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  • Coffee Mug

I’m in love with this mug. 🙂

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  • Boots

I’ve been looking for a pair of boots like these for a while. I finally found them in New Look, so I had to get them. They are so comfortable to wear too.

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  • Lipstick

I have really fell in love with this lipstick. It’s affordable, nice colour payoff and it’s not drying on the lips.

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  • Pink Pen

Actually, I’ve had this pen for a while now. But this month I have been using it so much in my planner. It’s just so cute. 🙂

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  • Mini Eggs

I have a mild obsession with these. Need I say more?

So that’s it for my January favourites.

What are some of the things that you’re loving this month?

Thank you very much for reading. I hope that you are enjoying your weekend. ❤

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P.S. Check out my December Favourites. 

Things I Do When I’m Feeling Down.

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Sometimes I have those moments where I feel like the entire world is against me. Nothing I do seems to be right. And nothing seems to lift my mood.

It’s really easy for me to lay in bed and convince myself that it’s best if I hide myself away from the world.

For the past couple of months I’ve been trying to break that cycle. Even if I wake up and don’t feel in the mood to do anything. I force myself to get up and do something, anything.

I often find that once I’m up and doing something my mood automatically lifts. Here is a list of things I do when I’m feeling down.

  • Write In My Journal
  • Read Positive Thoughts From My Positive Jar
  • Paint My Nails
  • Read A Book
  • Go For A Walk
  • Call A Friend
  • Apply Make-up
  • Do Some Baking
  • Do Yoga
  • Take A Bath
  • Watch YouTube
  • Colour in Mindfulness Book

When I’m having a bad day, I tell myself that the mood is only temporary. It will pass and that I will feel better soon.

I’ve found that it’s important to not be too hard on yourself and remind yourself that you’re doing the best you can do. If all you’ve done that day is get out of bed and watched Netflix, that’s better than nothing. You could have just stayed in bed and done nothing at all.

I’ve found that you need to remind yourself of all the positives you have in your life and not focus too much on the negatives.

What do you do when you’re feeling in a low/bad mood?

Thank you for reading. ❤

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P.S. Why not check out some of my other posts:

Saying No To Anxiety

The Power of Positivity

Be Kind To Yourself, Always

Beating Those Winter Blues

 

 

I’m feeling Accomplished.

Dear Journal,

Today was my first day at my new job. I was so nervous, I was worried that I would mess up. I was worried that I was going to freak out and panic. I was worried that I would let myself get overwhelmed and that I would embarrass myself. I was worried that the people there wouldn’t like me.

But today. Everything was great. I did it. I got through my shift. I didn’t panic or freak out. People seemed to like me, and I got on with them too.

I’m feeling accomplished. I’m feeling really positive. I’m proud of myself.

I’m going to spend a couple of hours watching YouTube before I start planning videos. 🙂

Thank you for reading. I hope you’re all having a lovely day. ❤

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