A Weekend To Myself.

Dear Journal,

This evening I want to talk to you about my weekend. Last Thursday my mum told me that my family were going away. Unfortunately, I couldn’t go as I was working all weekend. So that meant that I had the entire house to myself. At first, I was super excited, I could have some ‘me’ time. I hadn’t really been by myself for any length of time since I lived in South Korea last year.

Once Friday came around I started feeling a bit apprehensive. Once I had finished work, I headed straight to the gym. Then I headed straight home.

For about a month and a half now I’ve been seriously thinking about moving out into an apartment by myself. Sometimes I miss living by myself. I really like having my own space. 

After reflecting on this weekend, I don’t think I’m quite ready to move out by myself just yet. For the past two nights I’ve not slept well. I’ve barely eaten and I’ve just been generally quite anxious. Having said all of that, I’m proud that I got through this weekend. Nothing bad happened and I made it through.

For people who deal with anxiety and depression being left alone can be quite a challenge. It was a challenge, I’m not going to pretend that it was really easy. I mean, I think it helped so much that I worked both days. It took my mind off things. Evenings are often the worst, so I made sure that I kept myself busy and I went to bed early.

I’m a big believer in rewarding yourself if you do something that you found difficult. So this afternoon after work I headed into town and bought myself a new lipstick from NYX. I love it. It’s such a pretty pink. A girl can never have too many lipsticks.

Overall I’m proud of myself for getting through this weekend. ❤

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P.S. How was your weekend?

 

 

Learning To Love Myself.

Dear Journal,

Over the past couple of weeks I feel that I’ve been making so much self improvement. I’ve been working out most days. And today, I gathered my courage and attended a yoga and balance class at my local gym. I’m so proud of myself for going and putting myself out there. The trainer was lovely, as were all the other people there.

I will be definitely attending the class again. I cannot believe how much progress I’m making. I’m finally learning how to do things for myself. I’m not worrying about what will make other people happy as much as I was. The truth is, someone told me last week that I need to be more selfish. I agree, however I think being selfish can be good as long as it doesn’t hurt the people that you love.

As well as exercising, I’ve also being riding my bike to work on the days that I have to be at work before 7am. I’ve also been keeping up with my reading, eating healthily and keeping in touch with friends.

When I returned from South Korea in November 2016 I was in a really bad place. I have made so much progress since then. I really did not think that I could feel like this. I’m learning to put myself first. I’m learning to think about myself. I’m learning to do things that make me happy.

Even though I’ve had a few bad days recently, life is good and I cannot wait to see what this week brings.

I hope that you’re having a great week so far ❤

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A Day In My Life.

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Today I wanted to share a typical day in my life with you. I currently work a job that is based around shifts, and my shifts change every week.

Recently I’ve been having a lot of early shifts, which are perfect for me! I love getting early shifts. I find that if I get up early the rest of my day just falls into place. I’m much more productive.

5:50am: Get up and get ready. Unfortunately I’m not allowed to wear makeup for work, so my morning routine is pretty simplistic. Which I guess is a good thing as it doesn’t take much time for me to get ready.

6am: Make a cup of tea and breakfast. I’ve been eating porridge with a banana. 

6:10am: Leave the house.

6:25am: Get on the bus.

7am – 2pm: At work.

2:10pm: Walk to the shops. I usually do food shopping on Thursday and Sunday’s as they’re the days I do meal prep. I try to change my meals up every week, it stops me from getting bored of the same thing. 

3pm: Get on the bus to go home.

3:30pm: Go home and take a shower. Probably have a cup of tea. 

4pm: Walk the puppy.

4:15pm: Blog post planning.

5:30pm: Eat dinner

6pm: Do yoga

6:30pm: Blog post writing.

9pm: Watch Netflix/YouTube

10pm: Go to bed. Probably read.

11pm: Go to sleep.

So that’s pretty much it. This is what I tend to do most days. ❤

I like to keep a strong routine, I found that as soon as I start breaking my routine, that’s when my mood seems to be effected. I’ve also started shutting off all social media and internet (except YouTube and Netflix) after 9-9:30pm. I’ve found that this allows my mind to switch off and relax.

How about you? What is your routine like?

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Post Trip Feelings.

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Dear Journal,

Today I want to talk to you about my weekend away. Last weekend I went away with my family. As soon as I left work on Friday afternoon I headed straight home and got ready to start the weekend.

I was especially excited to go away. I felt that it would be a great opportunity to recharge. And I was not wrong. The weekend was great. I had a fantastic time!

I didn’t schedule my time. I didn’t get stressed about not planning my day. I didn’t set any alarms. I spent my time writing new blog posts and reading. It was the most relaxing weekend ever!

I’m glad that I went and not having the internet for the entire time was refreshing too. I mean, I love the internet, but I think sometimes I just need time away from it all. I was back at work today but I was feeling incredibly relaxed and I’ve had a fantastic day.

I find it especially hard to just switch off and relax without getting really anxious about the possibility of ‘wasting valuable time’… but this weekend. I did it! I ACTUALLY DID IT. I’m so proud of myself. I finally feeling like I’m making so much progress with bettering myself into the person I want to be.

I hope you had a fantastic weekend too! ❤

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Disclaimer.

Firstly, I would like to thank each and everyone of you who reads my blog. I truly appreciate it. Getting feedback from people who read my posts and take the time to comment really makes me smile. I’m so grateful for that. 🙂

Recently, it’s come to my attention that a few people have been using my images without obtaining my permission first. I am happy to allow people to use my images, providing they message me directly beforehand.

I hope that this does not upset anyone, as that is not my intention.

Thank you again for following me. I hope you’re having a great week so far.

Check back tomorrow for a Valentines Special post. ❤

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Reflecting On January.

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Overall, this month has been great. Tomorrow is the final day of the month. I can’t believe how fast this year is going already.

At the start of this month I was looking for a job, and now I’m currently working. I feel so much more in control of my life. Having this job definitely makes me feel like I have a lot more options in my life.  I feel much more free and happy. 🙂

This month I’ve really learnt how to appreciate all of the amazing things and the amazing people that I have in my life. I’m incredibly lucky. I want to continue feeling this positive.

I’m feeling so accomplished.

  1. I have a job.
  2. I’ve read this months book.
  3. I’ve kept to my weekly blog schedule.
  4. I’ve eaten more healthily.
  5. I’ve done yoga more.
  6. And most importantly, I’ve made time for myself. Self-care is so important. It’s so easy to always be cornered about others and forget to take care of yourself. 

Tonight I’m planning on going to bed early, and I will start reading a new book. Then I will be fully refreshed for work tomorrow morning. 🙂

How was your January?

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Check out some of my recent posts ❤

Things I’m Loving This January 

Gratitude Challenge – A Family Member

Beating Those Winter Blues

Things I Do When I’m Feeling Down

The Power Of Positivity

 

Things I Do When I’m Feeling Down.

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Sometimes I have those moments where I feel like the entire world is against me. Nothing I do seems to be right. And nothing seems to lift my mood.

It’s really easy for me to lay in bed and convince myself that it’s best if I hide myself away from the world.

For the past couple of months I’ve been trying to break that cycle. Even if I wake up and don’t feel in the mood to do anything. I force myself to get up and do something, anything.

I often find that once I’m up and doing something my mood automatically lifts. Here is a list of things I do when I’m feeling down.

  • Write In My Journal
  • Read Positive Thoughts From My Positive Jar
  • Paint My Nails
  • Read A Book
  • Go For A Walk
  • Call A Friend
  • Apply Make-up
  • Do Some Baking
  • Do Yoga
  • Take A Bath
  • Watch YouTube
  • Colour in Mindfulness Book

When I’m having a bad day, I tell myself that the mood is only temporary. It will pass and that I will feel better soon.

I’ve found that it’s important to not be too hard on yourself and remind yourself that you’re doing the best you can do. If all you’ve done that day is get out of bed and watched Netflix, that’s better than nothing. You could have just stayed in bed and done nothing at all.

I’ve found that you need to remind yourself of all the positives you have in your life and not focus too much on the negatives.

What do you do when you’re feeling in a low/bad mood?

Thank you for reading. ❤

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P.S. Why not check out some of my other posts:

Saying No To Anxiety

The Power of Positivity

Be Kind To Yourself, Always

Beating Those Winter Blues

 

 

I’m feeling Accomplished.

Dear Journal,

Today was my first day at my new job. I was so nervous, I was worried that I would mess up. I was worried that I was going to freak out and panic. I was worried that I would let myself get overwhelmed and that I would embarrass myself. I was worried that the people there wouldn’t like me.

But today. Everything was great. I did it. I got through my shift. I didn’t panic or freak out. People seemed to like me, and I got on with them too.

I’m feeling accomplished. I’m feeling really positive. I’m proud of myself.

I’m going to spend a couple of hours watching YouTube before I start planning videos. 🙂

Thank you for reading. I hope you’re all having a lovely day. ❤

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The Power of Positivity.

Dear Journal,

I’ve mentioned this in a previous post, I’m always guilty of paying too much attention to the negatives in my life and dismissing everything positive.

Over the past couple of weeks I have began to change that. Every time something good happens, or I do something that I think I couldn’t do. I write the positive thing on a piece of paper and put it into a jar.

Writing my positives and achievements down on paper allows me to focus on the positive steps that I’ve taken.

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I’ve been having a good week this week. I’ve been motivated, positive and healthy. I’ve been doing yoga most nights. Drinking more water. Eating most meals. Writing in my journal…sometimes haha. It’s made me feel much more optimistic.

When you’re feeling down, stressed or negative I would definitely suggest doing this. It really helps you to see that you have more positive things in your life than you think you do. 

How is your week going so far? ❤

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Saying NO to Anxiety.

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Dear Journal,

Today I did something that I was scared to do. I put myself in a situation that I knew would make me feel uncomfortable, but I did it anyway. I felt am feeling proud of myself. I feel that I did well. 🙂

It’s hard for people to understand anxiety and how it makes you feel if you haven’t felt it firsthand. Therefore it can be really tough for the people around me. For me, anxiety effects a lot of my life.

It sometimes stops me from going to shops by myself. That all depends on how I’m feeling at the time.

It stops me from seeing friends, as I’m too afraid that I will feel uncomfortable or feel judged. If you knew my friends, you would know that they are the nicest people in the world. 

It stops me from having a restful sleep as I often wake up 2, 3, 4 am.

It stops me from doing the things I love, because I feel that I don’t have the confidence to follow through with what I create.

The list goes on. You get the picture, I won’t bore you with the entire list. 

BUT, today I starred anxiety right in the face. I decided that it was no longer acceptable for anxiety to have control of my thoughts and my feelings. I decided that it is okay to be nervous to be going into a situation that makes me nervous, as that would be the reaction of any normal person.

And I did it! Today I tackled a goal that I spent all day yesterday worrying about.

I did it! And I am glad that I did.

I spent this evening walking the dog, doing yoga and spending time with my family. A perfect Wednesday evening.:)

Thank you very much for reading. Enjoy the rest of your evening. ❤

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