It’s Been Quite A While.

Well hello there, it’s been such a long time since I’ve uploaded onto this blog. There are many reasons why I haven’t, the main one being, life has just kinda been a bit crazy!

A few weeks ago I started a new job and I’m loving it so far! The staff are so lovely and they really have made me feel part of the team.

I can’t believe that it’s almost September! Where is this year going?

I had a lot of fears and anxiety about uploading on here again. After giving it much thought I just figured that I didn’t really have anything to loose. Besides, I really miss my rambling thoughts!

Tomorrow marks a pretty big day for me. It’s the day that I’ve been waiting for for a good 2 and a half years, maybe a little longer than that now that I think about it. It’s the last day that I will spend on anti-depressants. I will be 100% medication free! I cannot believe how much my life has changed. Of course I still have bad days, and I still find myself rattled with anxiety. But for the most part, life is great! It’s been an uphill battle but I wouldn’t change it for the world.

I’ve started going to the gym more too. It’s doing wonders for my self-confidence! I’m also doing tons of reading. I’m currently reading Becoming by Michelle Obama, she’s such an inspiration! OH and also, I don’t know how I could possibly forget this! My sister has moved down to Kent. How amazing is that? I’ve been loving spending more and more time with her.

So that kind of sums up what I’ve been up to.

What have you guys been up to? I would love to hear all about it.

-Hannah x

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Lets Talk: The Mental Health Community.

Hello and welcome.

Today I wanted to share with you a new video that I’ve uploaded talking about the online mental health community.

Much love,

Hannah x

Monday Must Have.

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Myself and my partner use it every week. We use it to keep track of meals, work hours, birthdays and other things to remember. It’s been a great tool for us to organise our time better. My partner tends to work a lot and his hours can be quite spread out, using this board allows us to plan when we will be eating dinner together, when we will have free time to do things together and more.

It’s a life saver! And it’s an organisers dream product! I would strongly advise anyone to get one. It makes everyday tasks and organisation so simple and a lot less stressful.

Let me know if you use anything similar to organise your time.

– Hannah ❤

Wednesday Wisdom.

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It’s so easy to get into the rut of believing everything that your mind tells you. From experience I think it’s better to always follow your gut feeling.

For instance, there have been so many times in my life over the past year where I’ve thought, “should I do this?” or, “but what if?”

My conclusion is, life is too short to think like that. Go for it! It’s not a good decision, most likely there is another way to look at the situation. There is always a way to ‘fix’ a situation.

  • Keep a positive mind.
  • Do your best.
  • Keep fighting.
  • You can do this!

Thats everything from me! I hope you’re all having a good week this week!

– Hannah ❤

25 Things I’ve Learnt in 25 Years.

Hello everyone! How is your week going so far?

  1. I can’t please everyone.
  2. Embracing who I am.
  3. Finding what I love and doing more of it.
  4. I’m learning to see my struggles as lessons.
  5. I’m learning what the most important things in life are.
  6. Getting my university degree wasn’t all that.
  7. It’s okay that I don’t enjoy drinking alcohol.
  8. It’s okay if people don’t like me.
  9. It’s good to have opinions.
  10. Coffee is as amazing!
  11. Traveling makes me excited but also anxious.
  12. I deserve love and happiness.
  13. I really do love baking.
  14. It’s okay to ask for help.
  15. It’s okay to cry.
  16. I’m learning how to manage my mental health.
  17. I don’t need to be ashamed of my scars.
  18. I find yoga therapeutic.
  19. It’s okay to not stress about the ‘little things’
  20. I have so many amazing people in my life.
  21. Someday I would like to have children.
  22. The idea of marriage no longer scares me.
  23. I will always be sensitive and that’s okay!
  24. It’s okay to take breaks and doing nothing is actually okay!
  25. Keeping a journal has/is very useful for my mental health.

So that’s it! 25 things I’ve learnt in 25 years. Some of the things on that list, I am still working on and will be mostly likely working on them on a daily basis. It feels so good to see the achievements and positives in my life.

At times it can be so easy to get bogged down with the realities of life that we forget to look after ourselves and appreciate the journey that we are taking.

Every decision we make and every tough day we get through is leading to something greater. We need to keep fighting because in the end, we will get to live the life we so deserve.

Enjoy the rest of your evening!

Feel free to share some of the things that you’ve learnt over the years. 

– Hannah ❤

 

The Two Month Update.

I’ve lived here two months already? I can’t believe how fast it’s gone. I feel pretty much all settled in now.

Work is going well. Josh and I are doing great. I’m feeling quite independent and empowered which is great. I think because I moved out then moved back in with my family a couple of times in the past, I forgot how great it is to have my own space and my own routine. I mean, don’t get me wrong I miss my family though, especially my sisters sarcastic jokes!

All in all I’m so happy that I’ve made the move!

I haven’t really talked about on here what happened with my therapy sessions and why I quit. There are a lot of things that I want to write on here that I feel that I can’t right now so I will keep this very basic. Moving away was needed for a number of reasons. Firstly, because of mines and Josh’s relationship. Secondly, I needed to grow as a person (as cliche as that sounds!) I needed to step out of my comfort zone. Although I’ve moved away before, 5,489 miles to be exact! There was something different about this move. I wasn’t running away as I had done previously. It was about building upon the life I had learned to love. For a long time I would use the phrase “I want to start a fresh, or a new life.” But this time, it has been more about moving to a place that I liked the look of, with a person that I love dearly. It’s about sharing and creating a life with Josh as well as making myself proud of who I am and what I have and will achieve.

We only live one life and I want to make it my absolute mission to live it!

I guess what I’m trying to say is, I’ve been in and out of therapy for as long as I can remember and right now I want to live in the present. I don’t want to talk about the past. I do have a lot I need to work on and I do have a lot of things (mostly OCD habits) that affect me daily. But! I’m working on it. There have been many times (especially this week) that I’ve had to sit myself down because I’ve stressed myself out that much about work, about cleaning, about the things I should have done. I care… I just care and obsess about things a little too much sometimes. I will start therapy again, maybe in a couple of months.

I’ve started getting back into exercising and doing yoga. I’ve started taking more time to rest and have self-reflection time. I want to get back into daily reading and drawing. In fact, I have a day off today so I might just do some painting after I’ve cleaned the apartment.

I feel like I’m rambling a bit now. So to sum these two months up? Great! Eventful! Busy! And overwhelmed by just how welcoming and loving the people around me are.

I hope you’re all having a fantastic weekend. Remember to check back tomorrow to see what I’ve chosen for next weeks Monday Must Have.

– Hannah ❤

Hello Spring.

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The past few days have been amazingly sunny and I’ve been trying to take full advantage of it.

Nothing builds confidence more than a bright, sunny Spring day. I love the feeling of putting on a summery dress a pink lipstick.

✨ It makes me feel confident.

✨ It makes me feel positive.

✨ It makes me feel body-confident.

Recently I have been looking up spring inspiration on Pinterest. I want to change up my style this spring. I’ve been loving my natural curls but I want to change my hair colour a little, maybe some blonde highlights. I also want to learn how to plait my hair. (Any tips on how to do this would be greatly appreciated)

I also want to experiment more with my makeup. I have a greeny colour eyeliner so I’m going to be learning how to apply that, I think that it will look great with my eye colour.

Will you be changing up your style this Spring?

– Hannah ❤

Why Building Confidence Has Become My No. 1 Goal!

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Confidence is always something that I’ve struggled with. Over the past year or so I’ve been trying my upmost best to build up my confidence.

I often feel like I am trying to prove to myself that I can do things. I can go to the shops by myself. I can get on that train by myself. To be quite honest I feel a bit strange writing this down because if you’ve followed me for a while you will know that I moved away for university. I also went and lived in South Korea by myself.

So for someone who has lived alone and managed to move halfway across the world, how can they struggle with confidence?

Well to tell you the truth I go through phases of being confident and then being withdrawn. Some days I feel like I can do anything. Then other days it’s like I don’t have any confidence and I just want to hide away.

It’s very frustrating, I want to be confident.

To build my confidence I have tried to make myself do small things. Maybe I will walk to the shop by myself. Maybe I will go and sit in a coffee shop for an hour or so. or maybe I will get on a bus and go to a nearby town for the day. Like I said, some days all of those things are so easy and enjoyable to accomplish and I quite often don’t even think about it. Other days its a chore to do those things.

One of the things I learnt whilst doing CBT was to reward the things that you find difficult. I try and set myself goals of the things I want to achieve. Once I achieve a goal I make sure that I reward myself for doing it. My CBT therapist always emphasised the importance of this technique as it trains the brain to recognise the goal as a positive thing rather than something to be anxious/scared about.

Over the coming week I’m going to be working on taking walks by myself. You might be aware that I’ve just moved to a new place so I’m working on making myself feel more comfortable here. I think this is a very positive step for me so I’m looking forward to achieving this goal. I think that it will do wonders for my confidence. 😀

What techniques do you use to build your confidence?

– Hannah ❤

I’m Starting YouTube!

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You may or may not know, over the past couple of weeks I’ve uploaded a couple of videos to my YouTube channel.

Have you seen them? No…? You can see them here. 

I’m hoping by starting to film and upload videos I can build my self-confidence. I struggle with speaking on camera but it’s always something I have wanted to do! I love making videos and I love to share my experiences and thoughts with other people.

I’m thinking that starting this channel will be a great focus for me.

If you have the time I would really appreciate it if you head over to my channel and see what I’ve been up to.

I will be continuing to upload here as I love blogging so much.

Thank you for your continuing support!

– Hannah ❤

I Have News.

Dear Journal,

Ready?

I have a job. I’m so happy! I hate not having a job. A job makes me feel like I have a purpose, a responsibility.

I have always wanted to work in a coffee shop and now I’ve got the chance to experience that coffee barista life.

Tomorrow is my last day training then I will be hopefully starting paid shifts from next Monday.

I have a busy few days after tomorrow, I’m hoping to be filming what I get up to.

Check out my new video over on my YouTube channel 🙂

I hope you’re all having a great week.

– Hannah ❤