I Have News.

Dear Journal, … Ready? … I have a job. I’m so happy! I hate not having a job. A job makes me feel like I have a purpose, a responsibility. I have always wanted to work in a coffee shop and now I’ve got the chance to experience that coffee barista life. Tomorrow is my … More I Have News.

Love Yourself.

I feel like I spend a lot of my time reminding people to love themselves and I find that I neglect to love myself. Today I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. Its going to be a very emotionally changing next few months. I need to remember to not be too hard on myself. Maybe … More Love Yourself.

Session 2.

This morning I had my second session. I was feeling much more relaxed about going this time. Last week I was quite anxious. This week we talked about: Mood changes OCD behaviour Current living situation I’ve had quite a rough week (i feel like I say this every week) but this week I’ve been feeling … More Session 2.

Session 1.

Last Monday I had my first psychotherapy session. I’m not going to lie, I was pretty anxious about it! I really wasn’t sure of what to expect. The session was incredibly emotional and upsetting. We talked about my childhood. We talked about my parents and my dad’s controlling behaviour. We talked about the effects that … More Session 1.

My Trip to Kent.

Welcome to Blogmas day 23! Today has been crazy busy. I got on a train to London at 6:22am this morning. This Christmas I will be spending the holiday with my boyfriend and his family. I’m heading down a couple of days early so I can spend some time with Josh and his family before … More My Trip to Kent.

Christmas As A Child.

Growing up, I loved Christmas as a child. I loved how excited I would get at the thought of coming down the stairs and seeing beautifully wrapped presents (of course, Christmas isn’t just about this) but as a child, you don’t often know any different. I remember the hours spent writing down items out of … More Christmas As A Child.

MBT Therapy – Week Three.

This session I found particularly difficult and emotional draining. We were discussing ‘Understanding Personality Development’. We discussed how growing up in particular tough or stifling environments can stint personality development. This can cause a person to feel: Lack of trust Not getting close to people Feeling Abandoned Limited self-confidence Poor self-worth Poor emotional & behavioural … More MBT Therapy – Week Three.

I Want To Be Okay.

Dear Journal, The past few days have been quite productive. I’ve certainly had ups and downs. As I’m writing this I’ve found myself getting very paranoid and very emotional. I worry that I’m not enough. I worry that I will never overcome depression. I worry that I will never overcome how I feel. I worry … More I Want To Be Okay.