Getting Ready for Autumn.

Good morning, hows your Sunday going so far? Restful I hope! Grab yourself a nice warm drink and get ready for todays post.

Today I wanted to share a few things with you.

  1. This gorgeous bedding that I bought from Asda Living.
  2. My bedtime routine.
  3. Creating a comfortable bedroom space.

Because most of my shifts have been starting at 6:15am, I’ve been trying to get into bed before 10pm. I make sure that I open the window an hour before. There is nothing worse than trying to sleep in a room that is too hot. I’ve been loving lighting candles and putting fairy lights up. It feels so cozy! I’ve been slacking on my reading over the past couple of months. I haven’t been able to get into reading as much as I used to. I’ve been challenging myself to read at least one chapter throughout the day.

I’m currently reading Kalyn Nicholson’s book called Catcher. You can buy it from Amazon. 

With Autumn just around the corner I’m in the process of moving some things around in the flat, this includes, new throws, pillows, candles, and art. Yes, art. I’ve bought a couple of pieces from Etsy. I just need to buy a couple of frames then they will be ready to put up.

The boy and I have just bought a rug for the living area, it’s looking and feeling more like our home already. I bought some cushions to match the rug. They are both neutral colours.

I’m so excited for Autumn. I’ve started filming more videos over on my YouTube channel. I will have two new videos going up next week. Click here to subscribe to my channel. 

Much love,
Hannah x

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# We All Have A Story.

After seeing this hashtag going around on Twitter this morning I just knew that I had to get involved. Created by The Blurt Foundation. I’m all about things like this, it’s such a fantastic way to get people talking about mental health. Raising awareness about mental health needs to be taken more seriously than it ever has done before. It’s important that people feel that they can reach out without feeling pressured or embarrassed.

I came across Me and My Mental Health Matter’s Blog and loved the questions they used so I decided that I would answer the same questions on here.

When did you first notice your condition?

I think I was first aware of my condition from the age of 13. I didn’t fully understand or know exactly what it was. I just knew that I didn’t feel ‘right’. I didn’t fit in, but not in a ‘normal’ typical teenage not fitting in way, as many people around me felt thats the phase I was going through. I knew something was wrong and that I didn’t feel right.

It wasn’t till the age of 18 that my doctors finally gave me the ‘depression and anxiety’ label.

When did you first get help for your condition? 

I first saw a school councillor at the age of 15. She helped me with stress management. That was the first time I was introduced to breathing techniques and meditation.

I saw three different therapists throughout my time at University. As well as a crisis team and sought help from the A&E department.

Do you take medication?

Yes. Over the past 6 years I’ve taken it on and off. At the moment I take two different dosages of Venlafaxine. It’s the only one I’ve been on that’s worked. Before Venlafaxine, no medication was working so my doctor referred me to a psychiatrist and they doubled my dose. I’ve been on this dose for the past year and 8 months. I will probably be on them for the rest of my life, but to be honest, if they help me live my life then I am okay with that.

What do you miss out on because of your condition?

In short, yes I do miss out on some things. But, as I get older I realise that my life is what I make it. Travel makes me anxious at times, but I take small journeys to challenge myself.

Would you get rid of your condition if you could?

No. I don’t think I would. It would have made my life a hell of a lot easier, but I wouldn’t have the acceptance and compassion for life that I have now. Yes there are many situations that make me anxious. There are days I feel like I can’t face the world. There are days where I feel like I can’t ‘do life’ anymore. But, I keep fighting. I keep living each day as it comes because I might feel depressed and hopeless one day but the next day I might wake up and be happy.

We All Have A Story. It’s your story and everyones is different. Keep fighting and pushing for what you want in life.

Life is so worth it.

Much love,
Hannah x

My Bedside Table Essentials.

Hello! I hope that you all have had a great week and are taking the weekend to just relax and recharge. If you’re working this weekend (like I am) make sure you get some ‘me time’ in during the evening times.

Today I want to share my bedside table essentials with you. I’ve been thinking about uploading a post like this for a while now. I always find it so interesting to see what other people put on their bedside tables.

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I would love to know what you have as your bedside table essentials.

Much love,

Hannah x

Hello August.

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Hello again, it’s Hannah here.

Today I wanted to share my August goals with you guys!

  1. Progress with doing yoga for stress management and flexibility.
  2. Upload more consistently on my blog and Instagram.
  3. Cut back on caffeine.
  4. Read two books.
  5. Treat myself more kindly.

What goals are you setting yourself this month?

Much love,

Hannah x

 

I’ve Come So Far.

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It has taken me years to be brave enough to walk around comfortably in a t-shirt.
I walked around Calais last weekend in shorts and a t-shirt.

It was such an achievement for me! 👍🏻💛

⭐️ Your mental health does not define you.

⭐️ Your scars do not define you.

⭐️ Your struggles are a sign of your inner strength.

Keep being you and you will go far. Work on accepting who you are and where you want to go. Make no apologies for who you are and just do your best!

Much love,

Hannah x

25 Things I’ve Learnt in 25 Years.

Hello everyone! How is your week going so far?

  1. I can’t please everyone.
  2. Embracing who I am.
  3. Finding what I love and doing more of it.
  4. I’m learning to see my struggles as lessons.
  5. I’m learning what the most important things in life are.
  6. Getting my university degree wasn’t all that.
  7. It’s okay that I don’t enjoy drinking alcohol.
  8. It’s okay if people don’t like me.
  9. It’s good to have opinions.
  10. Coffee is as amazing!
  11. Traveling makes me excited but also anxious.
  12. I deserve love and happiness.
  13. I really do love baking.
  14. It’s okay to ask for help.
  15. It’s okay to cry.
  16. I’m learning how to manage my mental health.
  17. I don’t need to be ashamed of my scars.
  18. I find yoga therapeutic.
  19. It’s okay to not stress about the ‘little things’
  20. I have so many amazing people in my life.
  21. Someday I would like to have children.
  22. The idea of marriage no longer scares me.
  23. I will always be sensitive and that’s okay!
  24. It’s okay to take breaks and doing nothing is actually okay!
  25. Keeping a journal has/is very useful for my mental health.

So that’s it! 25 things I’ve learnt in 25 years. Some of the things on that list, I am still working on and will be mostly likely working on them on a daily basis. It feels so good to see the achievements and positives in my life.

At times it can be so easy to get bogged down with the realities of life that we forget to look after ourselves and appreciate the journey that we are taking.

Every decision we make and every tough day we get through is leading to something greater. We need to keep fighting because in the end, we will get to live the life we so deserve.

Enjoy the rest of your evening!

Feel free to share some of the things that you’ve learnt over the years. 

– Hannah ❤

 

Must Have Monday.

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Happy Monday.

Today I want to share some tea that I have been loving recently. How have I not had this before now?

I’m huge coffee lover but recently I’ve been craving herbal teas. I picked this one up from Tesco a while ago and I’m so glad that I did.

I’ve been craving this tea everyday for the past two weeks. If you love fruity teas, I strongly suggest you picking this one up and giving it a go.

What other teas would you recommend me trying?

– Hannah ❤

The Two Month Update.

I’ve lived here two months already? I can’t believe how fast it’s gone. I feel pretty much all settled in now.

Work is going well. Josh and I are doing great. I’m feeling quite independent and empowered which is great. I think because I moved out then moved back in with my family a couple of times in the past, I forgot how great it is to have my own space and my own routine. I mean, don’t get me wrong I miss my family though, especially my sisters sarcastic jokes!

All in all I’m so happy that I’ve made the move!

I haven’t really talked about on here what happened with my therapy sessions and why I quit. There are a lot of things that I want to write on here that I feel that I can’t right now so I will keep this very basic. Moving away was needed for a number of reasons. Firstly, because of mines and Josh’s relationship. Secondly, I needed to grow as a person (as cliche as that sounds!) I needed to step out of my comfort zone. Although I’ve moved away before, 5,489 miles to be exact! There was something different about this move. I wasn’t running away as I had done previously. It was about building upon the life I had learned to love. For a long time I would use the phrase “I want to start a fresh, or a new life.” But this time, it has been more about moving to a place that I liked the look of, with a person that I love dearly. It’s about sharing and creating a life with Josh as well as making myself proud of who I am and what I have and will achieve.

We only live one life and I want to make it my absolute mission to live it!

I guess what I’m trying to say is, I’ve been in and out of therapy for as long as I can remember and right now I want to live in the present. I don’t want to talk about the past. I do have a lot I need to work on and I do have a lot of things (mostly OCD habits) that affect me daily. But! I’m working on it. There have been many times (especially this week) that I’ve had to sit myself down because I’ve stressed myself out that much about work, about cleaning, about the things I should have done. I care… I just care and obsess about things a little too much sometimes. I will start therapy again, maybe in a couple of months.

I’ve started getting back into exercising and doing yoga. I’ve started taking more time to rest and have self-reflection time. I want to get back into daily reading and drawing. In fact, I have a day off today so I might just do some painting after I’ve cleaned the apartment.

I feel like I’m rambling a bit now. So to sum these two months up? Great! Eventful! Busy! And overwhelmed by just how welcoming and loving the people around me are.

I hope you’re all having a fantastic weekend. Remember to check back tomorrow to see what I’ve chosen for next weeks Monday Must Have.

– Hannah ❤

Cakes, My Job, and Coffee Drinking.

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I’ve been meaning to write an update on here a while back but it’s been so hectic here. I’ve got so many things I want to share with you.

Work has been great, I’ve been loving working at the coffee shop. I swear it’s like my dream job. Over the past couple of weeks I’ve been getting more hours too which is great. I would quite happily work there everyday.

I’ve been so into baking cakes recently. especially cupcakes! I can’t explain it! I’m literally obsessed. I’ve been lucky enough to have the opportunity to sell some of the cupcakes and cakes that I make in the cafe. It’s so nice getting lovely positive feedback about my cakes. It’s also nice to hear about peoples thoughts about different flavours of icing or cakes they would like to try. It gives me much inspiration!

I’ve also been making my way around to different coffee shops. I found this lovely little coffee shop called The Little Kitchen. I absolutely love the atmosphere of this cafe. I ordered my standard cappuccino. I will be visiting again very soon.

So yes! It’s certainly been a very busy couple of weeks. I want to start vlogging more of my days with you guys so be sure to head over to my YouTube channel to see those videos.

How is your week going?

– Hannah ❤

Why Building Confidence Has Become My No. 1 Goal!

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Confidence is always something that I’ve struggled with. Over the past year or so I’ve been trying my upmost best to build up my confidence.

I often feel like I am trying to prove to myself that I can do things. I can go to the shops by myself. I can get on that train by myself. To be quite honest I feel a bit strange writing this down because if you’ve followed me for a while you will know that I moved away for university. I also went and lived in South Korea by myself.

So for someone who has lived alone and managed to move halfway across the world, how can they struggle with confidence?

Well to tell you the truth I go through phases of being confident and then being withdrawn. Some days I feel like I can do anything. Then other days it’s like I don’t have any confidence and I just want to hide away.

It’s very frustrating, I want to be confident.

To build my confidence I have tried to make myself do small things. Maybe I will walk to the shop by myself. Maybe I will go and sit in a coffee shop for an hour or so. or maybe I will get on a bus and go to a nearby town for the day. Like I said, some days all of those things are so easy and enjoyable to accomplish and I quite often don’t even think about it. Other days its a chore to do those things.

One of the things I learnt whilst doing CBT was to reward the things that you find difficult. I try and set myself goals of the things I want to achieve. Once I achieve a goal I make sure that I reward myself for doing it. My CBT therapist always emphasised the importance of this technique as it trains the brain to recognise the goal as a positive thing rather than something to be anxious/scared about.

Over the coming week I’m going to be working on taking walks by myself. You might be aware that I’ve just moved to a new place so I’m working on making myself feel more comfortable here. I think this is a very positive step for me so I’m looking forward to achieving this goal. I think that it will do wonders for my confidence. 😀

What techniques do you use to build your confidence?

– Hannah ❤